I have anxiety and panic attacks and I'm struggling with how to deal with it. I have 3 kids ages 6, 3, and 9 months. My husband is deployed right out of basic so he has been gone for 1 year and a half so far (we still have more to go). I have panic attacks over health issues, some real health problems that I'm dealing with but some are fears of something happening to me, my husband, or my kids....like a terminal illness or debilitating disease. I've had generalized anxiety for my whole life but I was always able to handle it with talking myself out of it, staying active, keeping upbeat. It never had an impact on my life. But I had my first panic attack a year ago and I've had several since.
I've had several health practitioners suggest meds and I've always been afraid of being dependent on something and I've always though it would go away eventually. Everytime it is suggested I take something to help, it is always followed by "well you're pregnant/breastfeeding". The last panic attack the Dr. said "maybe it's time to wean your baby and start taking care of YOURSELF. After all you have 2 other kids that are depending on you because YOU are all they have right now." And I can't get that out of my head. Am I causing more harm to my entire family by not taking meds to help with my anxiety? I can't imagine weaning...and I think that it could cause it's own panic attack. I nursed my first till 3 1/2 years old and my second till 2 1/2. My 9 month old is still so young. It comforts me to know that she is getting the highest level of nutrition and comfort. For example, she is teething right now and she is so uncomfortable and fussy and sometimes I can't deal with it because my anxiety gets me so down and hearing her cry makes me want to cry even harder....but I nurse her, she calms down, I calm down, and we all feel better.
Has anyone else been in my position? Did you find something helpful other than meds? Or are there meds out there that I don't know about? I've been taking St. John's wort, fish oil, B complex, and vit. D for the past year...not helping.
I wish that I could take time for myself, exercise, have time for hobbies, etc..but I can't. My kids take all of my time and they need me 100% because they are still so young. Mostly my 9 month old.
Thanks for reading and listening.