Turquesa, thanks for the suggestion. Yes, there are groups in my area but I'm just not ready for a group setting. I've been debating whether or not to go back to my therapist which would be 1 on 1 meetings. But I think there's some embarrassment on my part which is holding me back.
As far as group meetings go I'm kind of "scarred for life" after attending a couple of Weight Watcher's meetings ( a few years back ). I wouldn't call it a bad experience just clearly not for me. I'm really holding onto a lot of shame and self anger for allowing myself to get to this point and I can't express some of this in public.
I think that I can gain some strength from learning, listening and sharing with everyone here...and if not here maybe through OE. Though I do have some reservations w/ OE after reading a post yesterday from a woman who claimed to be 3 months who can't stop eating and was looking for a sponsor so she didn't spend her pregnancy fat.
Please keep me posted if you decide to start a Tribe. Happy Sunday!