Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Burlington, Ontario Canada
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My DS has been battling a brain tumour for a few years now. He is 5.5 years old, diagnosed when he was 3.5 after a lengthy struggle to get a diagnosis for him. To say it has been hard on me doesn't even begin to describe things. I was fine for the first year of treatment, but then stopped feeling like myself, but I was hopeful that when his chemo ended in January (after 16 months) that I would be ok again. But, the last 6 months haven't been much better for me. I am very over-emotional and I over react to everything. I have no patience for anything (ie my 3 year old who refuses to potty train). I want to be a good mother (I am a stay-at-home mom because I had to quit my job to care for my son), but somedays it just seems impossible. I think I am just done dealing with all of this....
And now it looks like DS's tumour is growing again. He will have an MRI within the next few weeks (we are waiting for a cancellation so they can get him in early before his scheduled appointment in late October). And the waiting is killing me. I can't take it. I am so miserable and upset. I try to hide it. I don't want the kids knowing what I am feeling. DS doesn't know he is sick again - we won't tell him till we know for sure.
If the tumour is growing again it will be another 16 months of weekly chemo. I don't think I am emotionally strong enough to go through this again.
So, my question is - will anti-depressants help me??? I don't want to mess up my system more than it already it. I feel like I have severe PMS everyday - not sure if my hormones are totally out of whack from stress or what.
Any ideas are appreciated.