I really need some direction here...and the wise women of MDC always have such sage advice. :)
In Nov of 2007 I had a miscarriage, then got pregnant with my youngest son in Dec of 2007. I had a really hard time after my m/c, I gained 10 lbs in the six weeks between pregnancies (I've always struggled with emotional eating and my weight but felt like I was at a healthy wt and had a handle on things for a couple of yrs by then). The beginning of my pg w/ds3 was difficult bc of low progesterone and anxiety about losing my baby.
After ds3 was born I was ok but after a couple of months I was feeling incredibly overwhelmed and inadequate, unlike I've ever felt before. I think it's gradually gotten worse over the last 3 years.
I have been doing a variety of things to try to help: vit d 4000IU/d (for 2.5 yrs now), sam-e 400/d (6 mo or so), fish oil for omega 3 (about 6 .mo), calcium for pms (last 3 mo).
I feel worse at certain times of the month but it seems like the last 2 mo I am moody, sad, irritable, have no patience, no sex drive, ALL the time. I feel worse, despite all of the supplements helping at first.
I thought I might need to talk to a therapist so I looked up someone online and liked her "mission statement", if you will. I paid over a hundred bucks to see her for 1 hr where she talked constantly and I never wanted to go back. I feel like it was so hard to take that step and I regret wasting the money.
What am I missing? I feel like I am doing everything wrong. I don't know who to turn to for help to feel better. My insurance doesn't pay for anyone who is natural minded and I can't afford to pay full price.
Any advice or BTDT would be helpful. I feel like I am ready to feel good again, but I don't know how.
Big hugs, you are so strong!! It took 5 tries before I found a therapist I liked, and then it ended up being an LCSW who was trained in something called IBP Therapy (Integrative Body Psychotherapy) which focuses on the mind/body connection and healing past traumas by parenting yourself. I don't know if they are in your area but it wouldn't hurt to look? Also, LCSW's tend to be MUCH cheaper than Psychologists, so that's a plus? Heck, if you could fin a good support group, even that might be worth looking into?
If you notice that you feel worse around your AF maybe there's some hormonal stuff going on? Do you see a naturopath?
You are doing such good for yourself and your family. I hope everything irons out quickly,
Oh, something my therapist used to say to me ALL THE TIME, was the The Universe Will Support you. It's simply a question about being open to it. I never understood that until I'd been with her for a couple years, and now I'm constantly amazed at how true it is. Without fail, if I trust it will be so, the Universe always supports me.
Lactivist-athiest-feminist wife to DH , mama to beautiful DS Kai 9/2011, #2 due 10/2015
Thank you so much for the support. I increased my vit d and switched from flax seed oil to fish oil, I am noticing a difference in that I don't feel angry and sad all the time. The sense of being overwhelmed and is still there but I feel like I can handle it better.
I started excercising too and it is helping me feel better about everything in general. It helps me feel like I have a sense of control.
Thanks for the input. I really appreciate it. :)