I had two unassisted births because i cant stand strangers touching me or looking at my naked body, especially while in a vulnerable state. I know that theres always the possibility i might need to go to the hospital with any future babies i may have and that terrifies me. I dont like admitting it but it does. So the fear of being out of control has made me create these fantasies that only serve to humiliate me. The few times when the "pregnancies" lasted longer than a few months, i tried explaining my symptoms to my doctor but she wouldn't take it seriously due to the negative hpts and periods. It makes sense she wouldn't and that should have been a clue, but it often takes me forcing myself to let go of the idea in order to see the truth. Nothing anyone says changes my mind, it has to come from my own realizations. I am frustrated with it and i hope it never happens again. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced this before and if they learned anything from it.
I've had a bit of trouble with this too. It happened after my first loss, which really depressed me. It took me over a year after that to get pregnant with DS and I can remember thinking so many times that I was pregnant even with a period and negative tests.
I'm sorry I don't have anything to offer.
Maybe someone else will have been through this and resolved it.
cancer-beating wife to DH since 7/4/09, mother to DS 5/1/11 + DD 8/21/2013