Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Somewhere under a mountain of laundry
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Hey, thanks, Stephanie! Even commiseration helps, as I don't feel I'm so alone in this experience, and I don't feel like I'm just a whiner. Whenever I think about talking about my feelings, I'm afraid I'm just going to get a "suck it up, Princess" reaction from others, especially since there are so many people who have worse problems to deal with.
I've heard about D.E., and have even used it once long ago to deal with an insect problem in an apartment we were living in, but I didn't realise there were benefits to taking it internally (food-grade, of course). I'm going to look into it, and ask my local health food store if they have it or could order it for me. I don't think I'm suffering from any medical issues, since my fatigue seems to be alleviated simply by getting enough rest. Also, I have to make sure I only enjoy that glass of beer occasionally, since having even just one drink does affect how I feel the next day. I've never been one to overindulge, but before I had children, I'd have a daily glass with supper. Now I've just become too sensitive for it.
A big issue is that I've become more sensitive overall, which has its benefits and its drawbacks. I have to be sensitive towards the needs of my children, but the stress of this (a lot of worry and anxiety) leaves me mentally exhausted, and there is no real break from it. I no longer get the deep, healing sleep needed to replenish my system, and during the day there is never a chance to just concentrate on one task. Also, I'm not the youngest of mothers, and am just not as resilient to stress as I used to be.
Exercise would help me too, I think. Unfortunately, it's a lot harder for me to get out for long walks like I used to take with DS in the stroller when he was a baby. We're not in a walking-friendly neighbourhood (too rural, no sidewalks) and DS isn't able to walk or ride his trike at the good steady pace I'd need. If we could work out some alternate care arrangements for him, maybe I could get out for a brisk walk once in a while, but we're just not there yet.
Having said all this, I am grateful that our family is so good and healthy. I do hope that as DD gets a little older and doesn't need to be carried around so much (I'm often trying to cook a meal with one hand while holding her with the other) and DS becomes a little more independent with his playing, I'll start to feel a little more like my old self again.
I hope things improve soon for you as well!