I am so sorry everything is falling apart in your life.
I certainly had those moments when nothing goes well in my life.
It is soooo hard.
What I usually do is to revisit my resources:
- see a therapist
- talk or write to or have lunch with my friends
- join some groups i am interested in to expand my supportive network
- keep up with good hygiene, exercise routine, healthy food
- feed your soul, what feeds your soul? for me, is dancing, music and arts
As for books, I love this one:
Hope that you are feeling better.
Again when things are falling apart, they are breaking open for better situation, it is a sign of change, it may not be bad, actually changes are always good, even though it does not feel that way at the moment, but please have faith that it shall pass!