It takes a lot of courage to say what you just did. My sister is a surviver also, she was raped at the age of 12 by a man that had been scoping her out for awhile. To this day she is afraid to be in her house alone. I have been called over to her house all my life, at different times of the night to stay with her. I always go, I know this fear is real. The good thing is that it does get better. She has learned throughout the years to be more assurtive and not give into her very real fear. I can't say as I understand about the fear of death and dying, because I believe in reincarnation, but I know this can be very scary for some people. As for being alone, I do fear that, If my husband ever died I don't know what I would do. You take care, you are one of natures children!
Mother of faith 9-29-03