Join Date: May 2004
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Good for you for being enlightened enough to know your own state. That is a huge step.
First of all. You can feel better. You will get better. Depression is a disease. It isn't an attitude or something you can will to change. It is a chemical imbalance.
I take and have taken meds for depression in the past. The best way I have to explain it and to explain these sorts of meds to my clients (I am a vet and prescribe anti depressants and anti anxiety med to my dog and cat patients who need them, even in animals, depressed behaviors have been demonstrated to correlate with decreased neurotransmitter levels!) is that the medication will increase the levels of the deficient neurotransmitter(s) in your brain. This in itself will make you feel much better. But the even more beneficial aspect to this is that it will make learning new ways of coping and thinking much easier.
The emotional pathways are linked to our learning pathways. When one is depressed, the other is influenced negatively.
Ultimately, you will need to make the changes in your life and your thinking that will make it possible for you to live in a more emotionally healthy way. Medication is a tool to help you achieve that growth. The idea is to use this tool to help lay down new, healthy neural pathways and then to move on without the need of meds. For many this is possible. The meds are not addictive, though when going off of them, they do need to be tapered to avoid some side effects.
There is no shame to it. The old cliche is that if you were a diabetic, would it be a cop out to take insulin?
I feel that being under supervision of a care provider when taking meds for the first time and with severe depression is important. They will guide you and teach you new ways to approach life and how to grow.
Also once you are feeling more balanced, it will be easier to do other things in your life to boost your emotional health, the healthy eating, the exercise.
Mama, you deserve to feel better. You can feel better. You will feel better.
I can only tell you from my experience, I would probably not be here in this life anymore if it were not for SSRI meds. I have a lot to be thankful for tomorrow on Thanksgiving day, and the fact that my life has been saved and so profoundly changed for the better due to psychiatric and pharmocological intervention is never far from my mind on this day.
Please reach out and make that appointment with your care provider and go to a support group. Depression is so debilitating and it robs us of so much.
Take care Mama.
Much love, ND
Mama to 3 daughters, expecting #4