|What's bothering you? What is it that you said that wasn't right? Why do you feel unwanted?|
|I feel like going back to that question and letting them have it, but what good will it do, really?|
I am so all of these I feel like I am going to explode and who wants to listen - nobody. I'm not one for the internet because it is hard to describe feelings without hearing the tone or seeing body language, but I thought I'd give it a try. I used to look forward to the weekends, but now now one days goes into another. I really don't like TV but between that and books that's it. I do have to force myself to go out. When I am in I want to go out and vice versa. Today I was so upset I didn't know whether I would cry, pass out or get sick. It's gotten worse since my aunt or godmother passed away last month and I was close, but that's not the issue, just the straw that broke the camel's back, so to speak.
I even tried to make a purchase and that ended up to be a problem and became such a mess that the store wrote me and said they wouldn't take my order now. I can't even make a simple purchase without a disaster. Maybe this is way too much information, but right now I have no one else and this is how I feel - empty. Yesterday I didn't get out of bed practically the entire day. Please don't write and tell me that' not good because I know it.