Hello there friends,
I was diagonosed with OCD after intrusive thoughts followed severe panic attacks and depression in October of 2006. I was 'new' to the intrusive thoughts and depression, it was quite a frightful experience. The first four months I was placed on Zoloft 50 mg, and felt flaaaaaaaat. When trying to increase I went into anxiety hell, racing thoughts, insomnia, that I knew increasing wasn't the solution. After no emotions and a 4 month trial, I finally decided to make the switch to Celexa which my psychiatrist recommended for anxiety. The side effects for both of these drugs were tolerable.
I have been on Celexa 30 mg for 4-5 months. I felt the difference initially that was good. BUT, I still have residual depression, anxiety, and most recently the racing thoughts and OCD are coming back. Yes, I am also 'doing' the work with therapy and CBT. I would say I am about 75% better than when everything first hit.
I am currently taking .25 of klonopin daily, and I am feeling the urge to increase because the anxiety is still there. But, I don't want to be on a high dose of Benzos. And, would like an SSRI effective enough so that Klon wouldn't be necessary.
I am not in the black hole I was once in, the OCD isn't as frightening but I am 'dealing' with my anxiety everyday still frequently along with depersonalization. Which is hard and I can feel myself becoming 'hopeless' slowly...again.
I just want to be stable as I once was.
Since the Celexa is not doing much harm, how do I know if I should try and risk it by using a different SSRI, and which one do you even try with all the options?
I guess I have read SSRI stories where people say the right SSRI helped change their life, they felt so much better etc. I would like that feeling, I'm doing the counseling and the work, so why am I still having such hard times and a general all over feeling of anxiety still ?