Thanks for your support. I see my doctor again in 4 weeks, 2 days ago he increased the zoloft dose im on from 50mg to 100mg. I guess it will take a while to kick in and hopefully help me.
After the cut last time a while back, I promised myself I wouldnt do it ever again because it made me feel so bad being a mom, so guilty. And now I did it yesterday I feel im failing as a good mom. How can I be a decent mom to ds when im feeling so low about everything? Its horrible. Its like im trapped in these thoughts or something. Feels like I'll be this 'messed up' forever. Maybe I was born at the wrong time, I often think that. I just dont fit in anywhere or with anyone and dont feel how a normal person should, I dont have much of a life, I try to tell myself its because of the depression and anxiety, but I usually get stuck blaming it on my personality. So hows it ever going to change if its who I am?