I have struggled with anxiety for most of my life--starting, I would say, around age 11 at the latest. Who knows if this came from circumstance--alcoholism, sexual abuse, poverty, etc. Some of it came from my incredibly anxious mother, who is now also on medication.
Anyway, the confusing thing for me was always that, when I wasn't anxious or panicky, I often didn't feel depressed. I liked my life, for the most part. Often my anxiety came from what was going on in the rest of the world. It still does. I so often feel like my own life is rich and good, so why can't everyone have the relative comfort, security and happiness I do.
However...I have had clinical bouts of depression that have lasted weeks or months, during some of which I have literally not been able to get out of bed. What I notice most, though, is that depression seeps in after a long bout of extra-bad anxiety; longer than a few days or so. Then I'm just so tired. And the big surprise was that, after starting Celexa several weeks ago, the first thing to lift was a depression I'd insisted I wasn't feeling. I just felt lighter. It was wonderful, I must say. And now I seem to have more will to do some of the things I always knew would help with the anxiety, like eating better and doing yoga.
As for anger? That's still the wild-card for me. It's never featured prominently in the equation that I've been aware of, but it must be in there somewhere. I know when my dd was around 2 I felt angry A LOT and I was not a good parent to her. I'm still trying to figure out where that came from, because it only lasted a few months. I think most of that was around suddenly needing parenting skills I didn't have. That's when I found MDC. But I also realized I needed to stop going down the road I was on and I really was able to pull out of that bad space.