Even my subject line annoys me.
Here it is in a nutshell. I got fired a couple months ago, which was actually a good thing b/c I HATED the soul sucking job I had. DH is a f/t student, adn I was the breadwinner. Regardless, we decided to have me just job hunt in a slow and easy way and enjoy the extra time I get right now w/ DS. We got Food Assistance, I am getting Unemployment $ (it's not much), and DH got more grants for school since I lost my job, and we decided to go into a little bit of debt (long story, but we're comfortable with it)
For the first month or so I was LOVING it. Playing with him, being a homebody, getting house in order, I even *gasp* cooked (if you knew me you would laugh as I don't like to cook and am terrible at it).
Fast forward to the last week or so. I just feel so blue. DS is driving me crazy. I try to do Gentle Discipline but I screamed at him several times, b/c he can be very stubborn, and I get very frustrated. I'm worried about $. I'm going stir crazy in the house, and can't focus. I'm spending way too much time on the internet and sometimes I feel like people just constantly want to pick fights w/ me, and I don't want to do that (not saying I'm a perfect snark-free angel, but really, I'm feeling like the "energy" on this board has been kind of negative lately...and I am honestly trying to be nice and supportive to people, and am not feeling the love back
It might be the weather - it is gray and gloomy. It might be that I am PMS'ing. I don't know. All I know is that I keep wishing I could just escape from everything for a while. Crap, now I'm crying.
Also, it is not like me to "open up" like this on a message board. BUt I have no $ for real therapy, and honestly, I'm at my wit's end, so I am reaching for ANYTHING to help me.
Well, not sure if you made it this far...any words of advice (or humor) would be GREATLY APPRECIATED!!