I started 10 mg Lexapro 9 weeks ago for both anxiety and depression. At about the 3.5 week mark, I started to feel a *lot* better. I was sleeping normally, my appetite came back, my energy levels went up, and best of all, I wanted to do things and really live life again.
In the last week, I have felt an unravelling of sorts. I think it started off as boredom- that feeling of "is this all there is?" I am a SAHM, and my kids are 7 and 8, so in school full time. When I was feeling better, I had decided that I'd not rush back into the world of work again, that I'd wait until January to start a job hunt. Then a few days ago, I started waking early again- at 4:00 a.m. or 5:00 a.m., when normally I get up at 7:00. And, the anxiety came back- not about anything specific (my kids have been a big focus of my anxiety in the past), but more anxious about the anxiety and depression if that makes sense. A kind of, "here we go again" feeling.
I went back to my family doctor yesterday, because I don't want to fall into that pit again. He didn't think that the Lexapro could be pooping out after such a short time on it. He said that even on meds, people will still have bad days. Intellectually that makes sense to be, but mamas, I admit, I am freaking scared.
I do have an appointment lined up with a psychiatrist, but it's not until Dec. 16.
In the meanwhile he suggested that we up the Lexapro to 20 mg. I started with the new dose yesterday, so two days so far. I didn't really have side effects when I first started out, so I'm hoping that I won't with this increase either.
I'm wondering how long it will take to feel better again. I'm hoping that it's faster than that first 3.5 weeks- they were the longest of my life. I guess the timing is good in that if it's going to help, I should see improvement before my appointment with the psychiatrist, and then he can take it from there. My family dr. is kind and caring, but I don't think he knows as much about this stuff as a psychiatrist would.
In the meanwhile I am continuing to work with a therapist on some mindfulness stuff.
Just wondering if anyone has had similar experiences or words of wisdom to share.
Happy mumma to Mr. S (7) and Ms. D (9) .