Ok thanks so much, I think I'll probably have to come to accept some TV watching or something for naps, but I guess I'm mostly frustrated that nursing to sleep doesn't always work, and then I'm left with nothing. Like, today my toddler interrupted just as he was falling asleep, and then he wouldn't go down and wouldn't nurse any more, so I had to take him for a 2 hour walk with 20 lbs in the Ergo to get him some sleep, all the while trying to entertain a toddler in and out of a stroller, who of course wants me to play with him but I need to keep walking and...you get the idea.
This is a pretty typical day. All of this is to say, I love bf'ing and I want to keep loving it, but relying on it to get him to sleep is making me not love it. It becomes a means to an end and a source of stress. To me, with two I don't really see it as sustainable, if I want to keep my sanity. I'm becoming short with my toddler because I'm grumpy and I hate that.
Sigh. Overwhelmed and out of ideas.