: Two nights of fevers plus two days of clingy boy on top of about two to three hours of sleep total each night added to nipples that have been sucked raw over the past 12 hours and a little boy who simply cannot sleep have turned this normally patient, loving mama into a yelling, exhausted, crank-o-saurus that I don't even recognize.
I want my sweet boy back. I want to sleep. I want to be able to nurse him without pain. I want sleep (did I mention that?). I want him to stop crying. I want my head to stop hurting. I want him to stop hurting. I even gave him some infant Tylenol, on the off chance that it might help him to get some desperately needed sleep, and it did the exact opposite thing and wound him up so much, he is practically vibrating with excess energy now.
Oh, and the whole "nap when he does" thing? Yeah, can't do that. I have another little boy that I have to take care of today, and I can't have a "sick" day. If I don't work, I don't get paid, and if I don't get paid, the bills don't get paid.
And, the "let your partner have a turn" thing? Yeah, can't do that either. I have no partner. As much as I love being a single mama, just tonight, I so wish I did. I desperately need some help. I would even take a friend right now that I could call in the middle of the night. They all have kids though, so yeah, can't do that either.
I am so tired, I want to throw him out the window and then sit down and throw up and then cry. Please, whoever took my sweet boy away, give him back. NOW.