Join Date: Dec 2003
Location: surrounded by snowy mountains
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flapjack, your post was so lovely. i was almost in tears.. i wonder sometimes if i would be able to talk so openly if something like that happened in my life, and i have to think that i wouldnt. it would be my story, but one that i'd only share in special times and places. these angel babies are so special, why they come to us is a mystery, but ive seen enuff people touched by them, only to have them move on to another world makes me believe that there is a reason for them. they have something to teach that only they can, and then when they are finnished they move on, like all of us. it is so tragic that life can be so short, but any life is beautiful. death is such a mystery and such a fear in so many ways, but like other posters have said, im not that afraid of death, for myself anyways,..but for some reason the thoght of a life so short makes my heart ache. and i suppose that i do have an angel baby in some sense, because when i was 19 i got pregnant and i wanted that baby so much, but my boyfriend did not and my life was so crazy and i decided for the baby and for myself that when the time was right we would be together, and i believe that baby had elwynn's spirit. and now he is in my life.. but i think of that baby a lot, and wonder what my life would be like if i had a 6 year old.. and i think maybe i wouldnt have my baby elwynn and that i may not be pregnant now and things just make sense, like you flapjack, with your little son..
williesmomma, i think its great that you talked to your midwives about your fears. thats so much what they are here for.. maybe ill talk to mine as well.. but somehow just talking about it here with you woman makes my fears lessesn.. because life and death and so intertwines, and no one can live without dying.
Once in while you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right....
Country living Mama of 4 home-birthed children, 3 chickens and 2 puppies.