Well...had my 28 week appointment this morning and am just feeling blah about it. This is the same mw practice I used with my first preg., and have been going to for years for regular gyn care, so I'm well familiar with them. I think b/c I am now considering homebirth, I am looking at everything with such a critical eye now- it has sort of clouded my view.
The visit was really brief, she didn't even ask if I had any questions or concerns, or if there was anything I wanted to talk about. I had the tiny thought that it wasn't much different than what I imagine an OB visit to be like. I know they are under a lot of pressure to see a lot of clients due to the current malpractice situation, so some of it I understand.
And maybe she saw we were 2nd time parents and had our toddler there with us so assumed we've BTDT and didin't have much to ask, and wanted to get in and out quickly with our son there.
And she reminded me to send in my pre-registration to the hosp. 'just in case' (standard practice) and I just thought, there is NO WAY I am going to that hosp (which I would have to if I was delivering with them and had to be transferred)! Even if I did have to go, I"d want to go to one near our house that has private rooms, not one 45 mins. away that only has double rooms and doesn't allow cosleeping and dh's to stay overnight!!
And you know, I asked again this time if she could feel around and see if she could guess where the head was, or if she could identify any body parts, and she just didn't do it- just said it's too small to feel anything- same thing the other mw did last time. Well, I can feel a lot when I press around so I would think an experienced mw could make a guess???? Just kind of wierd that they wouldn't even try to feel around for a butt or head or something if I ask!
I don't know......all the mw's have turned over in the time since I had ds, so I don't feel the loyalty to them that I had before. And now that I've had HB on the brain and am looking forward to meeting the CPM, I just feel like I don't want to use this birth center now!
Anyway...lots of thoughts swirling in my mind. I really hope things work out with the HB midwife and that dh gets on board with it b/c every day I think my heart is more and more set on it.