5 hours after it happened and I am still tearing up when I think about it.
My darling, beautiful son who will be 2 a week from today was having a snack and we were getting ready to head out to pick my DP up from work. He wasn't eating anything unusual, just some little gummy fruit snacks he's eaten a million times before without incident.
I will never, EVER let him eat them again. He put one in his mouth and I started to put my shoes on and then I heard him make a weird gagging noise. When I looked up at him he was gagging and sticking his finger in his mouth. He coughed, gagged and then when he tried to breathe back in it was the most awful sound I'd ever heard. I can't even describe it, but I knew he wasn't getting enough air. I turned him upside down along my arm and gave him some back blows like they show you on all those CPR videos and everything. I tried to sweep the back of his throat with my finger but it must have been sucked down into his windpipe because I didn't feel anything in his mouth at all. At any rate, even after trying to heimlich him the coughing and gagging didn't change and I started to panic so I picked up the phone and tried to dial 911. I ended up dialing 944 three times before I could get my fingers to cooperate. As soon as they picked up the phone I started crying "Help me, my son is choking." I had to struggle to remember my address and phone number, and in the meantime the dispatcher could hear the awful noise he was making. She assured me he was moving air but I told her that his lips were blue. She advised me not to do anything else and that the paramedics were 45 seconds away. There was so much drool coming out of him and he was gagging so hard and trying so hard to cough and there was absolutely nothing I could do to help him. This is the stuff my nightmares are made of.
Finally, he coughed really hard and this red fruit snack comes flying out of his mouth and he takes a big breath and starts crying and I'm so relieved I start crying hysterically. The paramedics show up not 10 seconds later so I hang up with the dispatcher and they check him out and listen to his lungs and everything. He's okay and they tell me he doesn't need to go to the hospital or anything.
All in all it was about 3 minutes but it was the scariest effing thing I've ever been through. Ever. I have never had to call 911 for my children and I have never been in so much fear for one of their lives ever. I must have hugged him and kissed him a million times since it happened because his beautiful little life was flashing before my eyes and I couldn't help him breathe. It was the scariest thing that's ever happened to me and it made me realize that my bullshit little tizzy fit over one thread where a couple of people I don't know were rude is not worth being able to come here and tell all of you about this happening to us today. I am still so shaken, and this happened almost 6 hours ago now. Anyway, thanks for listening everyone. I hope you and your little ones are safe tonight.