And I can't put it off, go around it, or otherwise get out of it. When it comes, it comes. And I have to go through it. And that freaks me out. I'm so nervous, and it's getting closer and closer. But, I'm not as nervous as I was a month or so ago. I wonder if it's just cause I'm in denial, or whether I AM actually preparing for this in some way. I have been doing a lil bit of preparation, but nothing major. I still haven't finished BFW, and I haven't done any serious mental work to prepare for labor... and I wonder if I'm ready. Or rather, will I BE ready, cause I KNOW I'm not right now! But I don't want to be nervous about it, because that'll make it worse.
But another part of me kind of WANTS it to come, because then I'll be able to stop being pregnant. I love being pregnant, but I do miss sleeping comfortably. Heh, I guess those days are behind me now for good anyway. And I miss not being in pain.
And then I think I'm crazy for wanting to go into labor. And the cycle repeats.
I would say in order, with 1 being the easiest and 5 being the most difficult:
1. Second trimester
2. Giving birth
3/4. First 3 months of dd's life - Third trimester (tied)
5. First trimester
Giving birth really wasn't that bad, it was pretty cool actually pushing the baby out!
Rockin' mama to Allison (9), Asher (5) and Alethea (3), head over heels in love with my sexy husband, Tony.
Christian SAHM to DS 3/04, DS 1/06, and DD 1/09 and expecting a new little one in May 2012
Persephone, I am having all sorts of feelings about labor, too, and this will be my third time. One of the best things about labor, I think, is how challenging it is. In being that way, it's incredibly empowering and it becomes that rite of passage that it is meant to be. I guess I am saying that I am nervous and also excited. And I continue to feel so fortunate to be someone who can give birth (that I am a woman, not a man, that I have been able to get pregnant, etc, etc.)
Tracy, I read Ina May last time before labor and it was so perfect. I am going to the library this afternoon and plan to get her book again.
I am definitely being reminded daily that labor is coming, as my baby has dropped low and I feel my pelvis opening. Feels in some ways like beginning labor, though I am confident that labor is way off.
Home stretch now, Ladies! The milk I bought today expires just before my due date....eeek!
Labor is a weird thing. . . I think that thinking about it actually helps you prepare mentally, and I think mental preparation is very important. I was really nervous with baby #2--primarily because I knew what I DIDN'T want (from #1) but wasn't sure how I would do. Historically speaking, I don't tolerate pain very well. Reading lots of birth stories, creating my own birth art, and learning about tons of different techniques helped put my mind at ease. As I got closer, I kept reminding myself that my body was designed for this. Whenever there was an opportunity (even a headache) I would try to relax all parts of my body so that I could practice not tensing up.
This all proved very beneficial to me. I quite literally felt like God after giving birth to Kayla. The best power trip/natural high ever. I felt sorry for men because they have not a chance of experiencing this. I wanted to be pg again so that I could birth again. Most women gave me a blank stare when I would explain that. Most women were opposite--they would like to have another except for the fact that pg and birth were part of the package.
This time I have no worries. I am thankful to be planning a homebirth with the knowledge and confidence that it will be great. I am excited to use a birth tub for birth not just labor. I am already feeling powerful and ecstatic. I love being on this board because I am not the only one who knows this.
Good luck everyone! I hope you all have a powerful and fulfilling birth. Sure, parts will hurt (a lot) but they create the best feeling after you make it through.
Mom to three very active girls Anna (14), Kayla (12), Maya (8).
I think that you can read 100 books, talk to 200 people,and meditate on it for 300 hours but there is really nothing you can do to truly prepare for birth, especially a first one. The best thing you can really do is succumb to the knowledge that its going to happen whether you like it or not,sit back, and enjoy the ride.
mama to Doodle (7), Butterfly (2), and Rythm (due at home 1/06)
You are the most recent in an incredibly long line of successful baby havers since the dawn of man kind!
But sometimes I look down and my rather quickly expanding belly and think, "Oh gee, there's only ONE way out for you!" There's something slightly freaky about the inevitability of it. I'm used to being in control but pregnancy has definitely taught me that this is the beginning of a new phase of my life. One where I'm NOT in control - and that it's okay to not be in control.
Weary SuperMama to my amazing neurodiverse 6 y.o. DD and to my on-the-go neurotypical 3 y.o. DS
For me the best way to overcome my fear of labor was to read read read all I could get my hands on. The more you know the less there is to fear. Even if you don't like the method, have no intention of going drug-free, etc. the Bradley book gives the best explanation of what happens in labor and delivery . IMHO.
Can't believe it is almost our time!!!!