My DD is 9.5 weeks old and I'm still on maternity leave until June 1st. I have a high paying job at an investment bank...which also means long hours (10-12 hour days). I was told before my leave by my boss that I could work at home 2 days/week when I come back. Now that I'm about to start looking for a nanny I e-mailed him to figure out which days and he says he doesn't remember telling me that. He says I can likely work at home on fridays but we'd have to play another day by ear each week - which isn't conducive to setting a nanny schedule. I suppose I should be happy to get 1 day at home but the other days are sooo long!
DH makes a decent salary but makes less than me. We live in one of the most expensive cities in the country so a lot of what we make goes to rent. I feel like I need to make a decision very soon about whether or not to go back. To continue life as it is, I have to go back. And if we ever hope to save enough to buy a home I have to go back. But we could move to a cheaper, less nice apartment or a 1 bedroom in order to save money and we would be able to get by.
I guess I am scared of making the leap. I'm scared to leave a well paying job in this environment...one I love with co-workers I like...I just hate the hours. I'm scared that I won't get another job like this down the road or won't be able to find a job if I decide to go back in a year (there are 10s of thousands out of work in my industry now!). Yet I don't want to miss out on my daughter growing. I know I'll never get these years back. I can't even bear the thought of moving her to her own room right now...how would I be able to leave her for 12 hours/day?
Thoughts from any mommas? I'm sure most of you have made sacrifices to be at home. We you terrified to uproot your life as you knew it to make the leap???
Cindy
DH makes a decent salary but makes less than me. We live in one of the most expensive cities in the country so a lot of what we make goes to rent. I feel like I need to make a decision very soon about whether or not to go back. To continue life as it is, I have to go back. And if we ever hope to save enough to buy a home I have to go back. But we could move to a cheaper, less nice apartment or a 1 bedroom in order to save money and we would be able to get by.
I guess I am scared of making the leap. I'm scared to leave a well paying job in this environment...one I love with co-workers I like...I just hate the hours. I'm scared that I won't get another job like this down the road or won't be able to find a job if I decide to go back in a year (there are 10s of thousands out of work in my industry now!). Yet I don't want to miss out on my daughter growing. I know I'll never get these years back. I can't even bear the thought of moving her to her own room right now...how would I be able to leave her for 12 hours/day?
Thoughts from any mommas? I'm sure most of you have made sacrifices to be at home. We you terrified to uproot your life as you knew it to make the leap???
Cindy