So I just needed a place to vent a little bit. First off I love being a SAHM, my son is a very busy little man and keeps me running most of the time, he just turned 19 months old. I am also a highly motivated person, I tend to do things to the extreme, my house is always clean I exercise (a fairly extreme exercise) every day... etc. I seem think that since I SAH I need to do everything and do it really well, I don't have any excuse, I don't go to work...blah blah blah. When I did work I worked a fairly high intensity job or 2 jobs, it is pretty much a personality thing. I also am the communications director for our org. and I live in a community so I cook a few community meals a week as well as clean the community kitchen and do chicken chores, etc.
So when I write all of it down it is fine and dandy, I see that I do do quite a bit but for some reason it never seems like enough.
OK, so just recently I went to the chiro for a rash that I have and also because my back has been in a lot of pain. She did a heat read on me and it is showing that I am off the scale out of whack, she said that my muscles are full of toxins, basically I have severe stress, we eat well and are fairly holistic so it is not an environmental toxin it really has to be that much stress! What the heck am I doing to myself?
I love to write I write a blog of my own I write for Attachment Parenting International (for free) and I write for our org as well as working on 2 books on and off. But I don't really have a relax hobby. I don't even know what I would do as far as that goes. I also play music and have a band, I enjoy it a lot but I don't really think that is a relax thing either.
So I guess I am just venting, getting this out somewhere, I don't really expect any answers I guess but just want to be heard. Thanks for reading!
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