Hi, I'm a SAHM (for the most part, I've worked in a friends garden maybe 20-30 hours this whole year, and sold a couple hundred dollars of stuff from my garden, but that all accounts for probably 5% or less of our income) to one ds, 17 months.
I have so much guilt about not working. I really don't want to work. I enjoy staying home. Maybe that's why I feel guilty, like it should be more of a sacrifice (not to say that it's easy, or I haven't made sacrifices, but for the most part I'm satisfied). In any case, I just can't get around this feeling. I know what I'm doing is important, I just always have this nagging thing in the back of my head that I should be doing more.
We live a good life, and aren't wanting for anything, but are basically poor, and I know that the pressure on dh to provide financially for us is huge. I keep coming up with reasons why I CAN'T work (and of course it would be difficult with a toddler/no child-care except dh/not many options in our rural area), but the truth is that I just don't want to. I felt like that before I got pregnant, I was just DONE with working for other people.
Anyway, does anyone else have guilt about being a SAHM? I really don't want to feel this way because I feel like I'm devaluing what I do, which intellectually I know is so important.
Just wanted to get this off my chest, anyone else?