I love her immensely, but my almost 3yo is driving me bananas lately. I really feel like I just need a break- but not your standard coffee shop/book store/bubble bath break- like I want a vacation or a conference or something. I'm seriously missing grad school and work-- the friends, the mental reward. I'm committed to staying home with dd for many reasons, and am genuinely happy to be doing so, but we've moved far from family and don't have anyone to watch her so that dh and I can go out alone together. There also just doesn't seem to be a lot in this town that I'm excited about pursuing on my own-- some organized mom things, book clubs, etc., but nothing that really strikes a chord with the inner me- the part that was here before dd and which is feeling completely lost and neglected. Ideas? Tips from those of you who actually feel balanced? I don't feel like this all the time- dd and I do lots of neat things together and I have couple of Mom friends who we like to spend time with during the week. Right at this moment, though, I feel like I could cry. I was ready to scream when she just came in and whined and crawled all over me to nurse AGAIN. She's now outside for a walk with dh, I just put a pie in the oven, and I'm going downstairs to workout. Hopefully I'll feel better in a little bit, because right now, the thought of tomorrow being Monday and waking up with dh at work and having to entertain her all freaking day just makes me nuts.