Ok, so its been a while since I posted, haven't really been around but things are going really well with Z now since we had a bust up with his mum. Got things out in the open, established a new set of boundaries that are actually being adhered to.
So really, thats about it. There is still the plan for him to go to his mums in the summer, like forever, but we are trying to make him realise that he is welcome back if things don't work out and even if they do.
Funny thing is, I will say 'so, you looking forward to going back home'? and Z is like 'huh'? And guess why that is? Cos he thinks of our home as home now!!!!!! How good is that?
It sounds stupid, but we got him a couple of dwarf hamsters, I don't know why, well, I guess because we all kinda have animals here and he was kinda left out and I think he really started to settle in a bit more after that and after we had a talk about his room etc. He has really changed.
I gotta go, its late, I have a fibro meeting tomorrow. Really, really suffering at the moment and the girls were all diagnosed with EDS last week. DD2 seems to have IBS.
Anyway, figured I would let you know all is good except for health issues (ok, I had a major psych breakdown last week, almost sent to mental health crisis team until I made the doc understand that the problem was me not having symptoms dealt with effectively, I am not crazy, I am just absolutely exhausted and I hurt so bad and I am already waiting for a psychologist in order for me 'learn how to be disabled' was the phrase used by my pain management doc. Lovely. Just wish the Docs and my family would learn how to accept me as supposedly disabled. Anyhoo, All was explained to Z and he handled everything ok (I am not easy to live with at the moment, I have been changed from and onto several anti depressants in the space of 3 months now, I tried pregabalin too which made me suicidal, as did the antidepressants. It was a really bad time for the Docs to go faffing around with all my medication, especially when in my notes, everywhere it has been noted about my reactions to anti depressants and gabapentin type medications.
To be honest, I feel like a really awful mum and the last thing I ever wanted was for any of my children to see me like that, cos it isn't at all pretty.
Anyway, all good other than that, definitely checking out now!