I have never posted here before but I need to just things out. I really miss my step kids. They usually only visit every other weekend, birthdays, and some holidays. They were here for 3 weeks over the summer and we had a great time with the exception of a crazy beach trip that ended in sun burns and staying in a roach motel. (now we all laugh about it) Since August they'ev only been here a handful of times because we cannot afford gas to pick them up (they live over a 100 miles away)
Last year they were here for Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. I made plans with them to decorate and do fun activites. This year they haven't been here. I have been waiting for them to come and I haven't heard if they are going to be here for Christmas or not. My Step Daughter loves to help me decorating. Its something we bond over. My Step Son, is a pain that I actaully miss. So far the whole Christmas season has been dull without them here. My decorations are in a box, and I had to force myself to make cookies for a cookie exchange. Last year we baked about 8 dozen cookie. It was the first year I'd ever tried to make Christmas cookies.
In addition to not being able to continue with traditions I am trying to start, I don't even know what they want from Santa. Last year we had a letter writing session, and we all got in teh car for a visit with Santa. I found out what they wanted for Christmas and had a whole lot of fun playing santa too.
I know if I feel this way my DF feels a thousand times worse.
Thanks for listening.
I really need to get that out.