Just making conversation here--no real "problem" to report. Just finding myself a little weirded out by all the baby shower preparations.
My best friend is putting together a "friends" shower for me in January . . . and some family members are putting together a "family" shower in February. Don't get me wrong--I am excited to see everyone, SO grateful that everyone wants to help us with preparing for the baby, and I feel really blessed that I have so many friends/family gathering around at this time.
At the same time, though, I am REALLY not used to being the center of attention . . . I am usually the party planner, the organizer, the hostess. Chalk it up to my Cancer nature (the den-mother of the Zodiac!
), or low self-esteem . . . I'm just not that comfortable with being the focus of events. Even my bridal shower was a little weird for me, although it was made easier by the fact that it all got thrown together very quickly, so there was little time for me to stress out about it (we only had 7 weeks total between proposal and wedding).
It's not like I'm having to do any of the real planning (although my friend has been consulting with me for ideas, since I would like to go the Blessingway route instead of traditional baby shower games) . . . but trying to put together an invite list for her has been hard; I am having a tough time wrapping my head around the idea that these women are going to want to come to this party. I just feel like I am going to be "fishing" for presents, you know?
I would really like to get over this discomfort . . . I am concerned that, once the baby comes, I am going to have a hard time accepting the help that I will need because of my underlying suspicion that people are offering to help because they think they should, instead of because they really want to.
Argh . . . I KNOW that this (or at least most of this) has got to be all in my head; I KNOW that my friends are dear, wonderful people who are very excited about this baby (no other kids in our immediate sphere). Why, oh why do I feel so squeamish about the idea of gifts and a party and all the trappings?