I think I'm going to freak. I got at most a couple hours sleep last night. I'm a total zombie but I can't sleep. I am not safe to drive due to how tired I am. I don't have tylenol pm in the house. DH is sitting in front of the TV watching some stupid Dracula movie which I just really don't want to see right now. I don't even want to be on the computor but I don't know what to do with myself. I can't watch tv due to his movie being on, I can't concentrate enough for a book and I can't sleep.
I told him I wasn't in the mood to watch a horror movie tonight, but of course he is still watching it oblivious. I hope he goes to sleep soon.
so sorry, sweetie. I had to euthanize my cat companion of 13 years two weeks ago. It is such a hard thing to do, and our animal companions are such important parts of our lives. I hope you can get some rest and some peace very soon.
I wanted to add, doing a ceremony/funeral can be very healing. Also, I dunno if you do much writing irl, but I wrote a eulogy for my cat, and it was a good thing, a good way for me to testify to her life and it's impact.
I did end up getting sleep last night. Dh did his usual, turn something on and then fall asleep 20 minutes into it. No problem, I watched sex and the city reruns, I needed something humerous, not Dracula sucking the life out of people.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I thought I was going to have to put my dog down last month, and just thinking of it was devastating. He's okay now, but those few days where I wasn't sure were awful. Pets are such amazing little beings. Know that I will be sending lots of love your way in the days ahead.