I hate to post this here because I feel like I am negative too much, but I am so depressed and have nobody to talk to right now.
My baby is breastfed and has her second ear infection within a month
She is only barely 5mos old.
My son is a whiny little brat all the time. He cries constantly if you tell him no and take something from him that he is abusing..like writing on furniture. He whines ALL THE TIME
I just get up and he WANTS WANTS WANTS. He was potty trained at school, but refuses to do so here. He does NOT listen. He won't ever do anything we tell him to.
My baby uses at LEAST 20 diapers a day
Plus my son's dipes.
I can NEVER even get a complete load of laundry done in a day, or I can't eat. When I do eat, I have to get up ALL the time because one of the two kids are crying.
I am trapped in this run down he!! hole 24-7 because the weather is bad.
Then my husband gets home and starts in on me.
I love my baby, but my son is very unloveable and he is good at daycare, but not here. I gave him lots of love and attention before the baby got here, and I try to give him lots now, but I am only one person. I can't do everything. I cannot be a mommy, and wife to my husband. He needs to smarten up and learn to do things without me. I cannot even leave him alone with the kids because I am terrified that he won't watch them good enough, and I am afraid my son will hurt the baby.
Now we have no daycare because it was too expensive, and we are moving soon. I can't wait to move, because dh's mom will help me out, but I am supposed to be finishing painting the bathroom and kitchen which I started and never finished. I am going insane forgetting things all the time
I feel like I have Alzheimers. I hate myself for being so angry, sad, and depressed all the time. I am going to call my med-manager today and tell her that I MUST go back on my Zoloft, and hope it won't hurt the baby. I see that lots of moms here take it, without problems, so I guess I should be able to also. I took it while nursing my son, and I am just afraid that is why he has emotional problems.
Something has got to give. I can't stand this anymore. I just want to drive off and never look back.
Please tell me I am not alone