I'm just so unhappy. I hate this stupid house, it's been under construction for the whole two years we've been here. Our kitchen is barely functional and it's been this way, or worse, the whole time we've lived here. I can't even have friends over because I'm embarrassed by how we're living.
SO and I hardly talk about anything real, I haven't wanted to have sex in ages because I just don't enjoy it and I end up feeling resentful almost every time we do have sex because he's the only one enjoying it. I don't want to deprive him, but it makes me so angry! And it's not for lack of trying to please me, I just don't have that spark in me any more.
I feel like we're never getting ahead nd are always struggling. Like we're just not connecting. Last time I brought up counseling he refused and said he'd leave instead. What is with guys that they have this oversion to getting help? I know he's just as unhappy as I am.
He asked me what was wrong with me and I told him. Now he's pissed and not talking to me. He just left and ignored me when I asked where he was going. I just don't know if I can handle this any more but I don't want dd to grow up as part of a broken family. I just don't know what to do, I don't feel like we're a team. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry and then sleep for a really, really long time.
Amy, mom to LadyBug, SnuggleBug and StinkBug. Expecting BabyBug in August 2011.