Join Date: Jun 2006
Location: Still learning to live
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Things are OKish..... Had kinda a scare with the baby, they thought she wasn't growing but turned out she was fine, and it was just me who had stopped... If that makes sense? I have the odd contraction but nothing too exciting... But she was due 4 days ago so any day now!!!! (I hope...)
As for DP or not DP..... Well, things we're kinda uppy and downy... I pointed out that if we had a chance to be together at any point again he was gunna have to tell the other girl about me and stop seeing her, and he said that he would. I asked him about it a few days later when I saw him again and he said he hadn't told her but he had stopped talking to her and seeing her. Which didn't exactly satisfy me but well if he wasn't seeing or talking to her I could hardly complain and there was no use in him hurting her unneccesarily. BUT he lied. I found out just today he does still talk to her, I don't know if he's still seeing her or what but yeah... Can't beleive I beleived him. Even thinking about it makes me feel sick. I'm gunna have to ask him about it when I see him next and just ask him to be honest with me... I do deserve at least that. It's annoying because the more I find out the more I know I should just tell him where to go... But with emotional attatchment its never that easy... And mentally I don't know if I can tell him to go... Not yet, I just don't want to be hurting anymore. But if he is still seeing her then I'm going to have to because baby doesn't need that kinda crap in her life. And for her I could do it. Because when it comes down to it she's the one I'm most worried about and she is far more important to me than any strong attachment I have with anyone else.