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#181 of 335 Old 07-03-2004, 06:47 AM
 
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I occasionally check in with this thread and have found it really helpful to keep the "big picture" in mind.

Wanted to post to Mosky- We've had a lot of hard times surrounding toothbrushing, too. I know that's not necessarily the point of your post, but if you want some suggestions or moral support in this area-check out the dental thread. There are a lot of people like you (and me!) that have had to restrain their DCs in order to brush. I don't like to force DS to do much, but this is a necessity-if you don't want their teeth to rot!

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Just joining in. I think this thread was made for me. I am really high strung and I think the anger comes from being so frustrated with my job, my debts, etc. I direct my anger the wrong way, that's all. I need an outlet!
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Just wanted to join in here...I want to go back and read the posts, so I will be back, eventually. LOL I am a yeller, big time! And want to stop, so here I am. Debi

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I could not have happened upon this thread at a better time. I did so much AP research the first year of DD's life and learned so much. Now that she is 20 months old it just seems that I hardly have any time to clean the house and pop on my boards, much less read as much as I need to about GD. I am so glad I opened this thread this morning. I am definitely a yeller. I HATE it. I realize I don't handle stress very well. I know this about myself. My PMS symptoms got so incredibly worse after AF came back post-partum. I am currently using progesterone cream two weeks out of the month to help tone down these anxiety symptoms. It has helped. I honestly don't yell as much since using the cream. It's amazing. However, my anger still gets the best of me some days. I am really trying to better myself so that I can be the gentle kind of AP mother I want to be.

I am going to start trying the positive talk approach. I think this might help me. I feel so guilty when I yell at my lil' DD. She is a high-needs child and demands my attention 24 hours a day. We are still nursing very often, co-sleep, and the brunt of all child care duties fall on my shoulders. So, oftentimes I am stressed out just by trying to care for her while keeping my house clean for my family. Just that is trying for me. Sometimes I feel that I am not superwoman enough like other women. I only have one child for goodness sakes and I can't even handle taking care of her and the house without bugging out. I just think I have a very low stress tolerance level. But like I said I am really trying. This thread has helped me out tremendously... kinda gets me back on track as to why I wanted to AP in the first place. I tried so very hard that first year and am so proud of myself. I want GD to work in my home and be an extension of the AP mothering I have already set in place.

Sorry for the novel but I have just been feeling so lousy lately about flying off the handle. It surely helps to have other supportive mamas out there who are going through the same thing as me. I have never spanked her. DH slapped her hand one time and I had to remind him that we agreed not to hit at all. But I feel that yelling at her is just as damaging as spanking her. It's hard to keep your cool 24 hours a day. Hopefully by getting back here on the Mothering site I can get my mind back on track as to how I really want to mother my lil' girl.

Thanks for all the ideas ladies. I will definitely keep updated on this thread!!

What are your very best suggestions as to books to read on toddlerhood and GD? I have read The Discipline Book by Dr. Sears. I need something more.
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What are your very best suggestions as to books to read on toddlerhood and GD? I have read The Discipline Book by Dr. Sears. I need something more.
How to Talk so Kids will Listen and Listen so Kids will Talk

How to Behave so you Children Will Too
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My all time favourite parenting book is....
Becoming the Parent You Want to Be... By two women, I think one's name is Elliot (?) Its a fabulous book, very empowering and not judgemental. It really helps you to clarify your own beliefs about discipline (and everything else) and helps you find solutions and ideas that will suit your own family without preaching about one particular approach.

I haven't contributed much lately. On good days, I don't feel the need and on bad days, well, you all know what the bad days are like!
I have a question for you all though:

What is your bad parenting habit? I mean, what do you do when you're really angry and can't think straight, when all the oxygen is drained from your brain and you're just running on instinct?
Please let this be a place of support, I think it would be good if we could all feel safe to tell the truth. maybe we all have some wisdom to share to help each other break these habits.

I'll go first.....

When I'm really angry I scream, in the most horrible of voices.
I tend to grab my kid's hands REALLY tight and drag them to where I want them to be.
When I've been really really angry I have swatted my ds butt as I've sent him upstairs to his room.
There have also been a couple of times when I have hit my kids. When they have hurt me in their own anger, I seem to have this awful knee jerk reaction to hit back.
I always apologize to my kids when I feel like I've acted inappropriately but I would really like to learn some new ways of calming myself in the moment, before I yell or scream or grab or hit.
It feels really strange to write this stuff down, Please, let's be gentle towards each other. Does anyone else want to answer? :
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Anesidora, I realised that I was often getting angry because the house was a mess. I would yell about little things they did because I would know it would cause me extra work. I don't know why I expected them to understand, why would one more toy / crumb make a difference when the place was already like a bombsite? Anyway, in a different section somewhere I read about the Flylady and she's been making a difference in my life for the past 3 weeks! My house is not immaculate, but the idea of routines works much better than I could have imagined. At first I thought I was turning into a neurotic cleaner, but it is really the opposite. Because I know I will be vacuuming again next week, I am much less stressed about the mess on the floors. Because things feel under control, I don't feel like I am about to lose it.

I now have 3 dc, but I also felt as bad and out of control with one as you do. There is 16 months between my first 2 and I didn't start feeling like I was in control of my life (or my house) until ds2 was about 2 and a half! You'll get there in your own time. If others seem more in control in some areas, they will be less in others, don't doubt it!

Robugmum, I am worse. I said a while back that I have started therapy because I actually kicked ds one time. It didn't hurt him but when you're 4 and your mum kicks you what kind of consolation is that? That was what really got me thinking I needed help coping. It's early stages at the moment so it hasn't really made a difference, but it's definitely the right thing to do and I'm confident that it will help in the long run.

Perhaps, squeezing them hard is your way of NOT hitting them, or perhaps you should already have stepped back and tried not to touch them. I think that in those situations yelling is better than touching (for example if you need to stop them doing something but are too angry). But since yelling "like that" is not great either, I don't know how you do it when you're worked up? When you're feeling resourceful there are a million things to do, but when you're on the verge of.....???

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You are so right arenciel,
I think squeezing is my way of not hitting. I am a very physical person. When I am angry I seem to need some sort of physical relief (read slamming doors, hitting walls, etc.). I feel that the squeezing gives my kids such a mixed up message. I want them to associate me holding their hands with loving guidance, not bone crushing pressure!

I need to figure out a way to stop myself in the moment and step back, just like you said. Problem is, in the moment it often seems impossible. I meant it when I said that all the oxygen drains from my brain. That's actually one of the body's physiological responses to anger. We go into fight mode and oxygen flows away from the brain and into the muscles. This would be really useful if I had to wrestle some wild beast to protect my babes, less so when its the kids who are driving me crazy!! When I'm calm and everything is going well it seems like it should be easy!
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Oh mamas, thank God I found you! I've been having SUCH issues with anger & yelling lately & i think i've only really become aware of it now that i've been on MDC & found a whole bunch of AP role-models! I"m going to take a good amount of time to read through the old & new thread- judging from the size of this one, it'll take a while :LOL

I just ordered 3 books yesterday to help based on recommendations in the gentle discipline sticky...1. love & anger, the parental dilemma, 2. why can't i be the parent i want to be?, 3. parenting from the inside out.

i'll be back after doing lots of reading. thank you for this thread i've really been struggling!
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Welcome to Monica!
I bought a copy of Why Can't I be the Parent I want to be at a used book store. One of the authors is the same as the one I recommended, Becoming the Parent you Want to Be. I think Why... is an older book. I haven't read it yet. Let me know what you think!
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Robugmum- thinking about the worst I do when I get really angry...... I have given the kids a swat on the bum in the past when angry- fortunately I have been able to get that under control & it hasn't happened in a long time. I think I've just about got that one licked, TG. To achieve this, I have to make myself walk away; sometimes I just stand there & shake from the effort of keeping myself under some sort of control, but it seems to work. But I do still yell. In a really angry, aggressive voice. Yuk. Last weekend I was so frustrated with the whole lot of them that I actually pulled huge clumps of my own hair out. DH was home, so I just walked out the door & kept walking. I ended up walking about 3 kms (in bare feet, in the city !!) until I calmed down enough to turn around & head home. Now, I'm pretty sure this is not a particularly healthy approach, & now the kids are nervous when I leave to do other things , but in the interest of honesty, that's exactly the way things went at our house last weekend. And I too, tend to throw things & slam doors when I'm angry. The kids always remember.... they even remember the time when I threw a packet of corn thins out of the cupboard in a fit of rage. It's been at least 18 months, so I know that it affects them, & how can I discourage them from throwing toys in anger when i do the same thing?? **sigh**

That said, we do still have good days too. Yesterday we all went to the beach & had a great time. I just hope that the good days outnumber the bad ones, KWIM?

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Parenting is just SO hard sometimes.

At my worst I yell. I stop listening and I sometimes threaten. Not physical punishment as my children know that I won't hit them, but stupid consequences like, "If you two don't stop fighting right now you are both going to your room for an hour and we will NOT be going to the park today." Blech.

Fortunately I've been doing a lot better lately. I'm managing to live in the moment more. I'm looking my girls in the eye more when we talk so there is more of a connection. I'm making real efforts to praise them more. Annoyingly, one of my biggest motivators is watching some of the things my dh says/does that make my stomach turn. He routinely threatens the girls with a sort of abandonment: "OK, if you aren't coming over here then I'm leaving/going back to work. Bye." At which point the girls jump up in a panic and cling to him. Makes me feel physically ill. And he makes these dramatic threats when he is frustrated that are just ludicrous (and the girls know it). "OK since you didn't pick up those books like I asked you to three times then I'm burning them all." Double blech. Sometimes I think he was beaten severly with the stupid stick.

Something else that is helping is that my oldest dd is now getting in her own bed between 8 & 8:30 every night. She starts kindergarten in a little over 3 weeks, so we are working on getting her used to getting to bed earlier and getting up earlier. She is allowed to watch Crocodile Hunter or a short video and she doesn't have to fall asleep, but she does have to be in the bed. She didn't balk at this at all and has done great. She still comes into my bed to sleep sometimes, but that's fine. I still get a bit of down time and evenings are a bit more peaceful. Now if my 2-yr-old would just do the same thing!
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Hi,
I've kept an eye on this thread, but I haven't posted in ages. It gives me great inspiration and support to know that you're all out there. I'm feeling in desperate need of some support today, actually, and that's why I'm here...

36 weeks prego, DH has been away for 4 days, and DS's (2.5 yo) behavior is out of control (could be related to any of the above). I've really realized that I may have an anger issue b/c even if it's not directed at DS it's still there-seething underneath. I have a few triggers-and naptime is one of them. We are still nursing for naptime and bedtime. And I think I should have stopped nursing a LOOOOONG time ago b/c now it is a point of frustration for me. Especially if it's not "doing" what I need it to do-like help DS fall asleep. He has been fighting napping lately, while I, of course, really NEED him to nap for my own sanity. Just now while I was trying to get him to sleep we read a book and nursed and all was fine. Then when I say that it's naptime I turn to my side to nurse him to sleep. Well, this doesn't always work anymore. And then when I ask DS to close his eyes, or let go of my breast-he does neither. I've ended up demanding and almost pulling him off of my breast in tears (both of us). I'm raising my voice to get him to stop nursing-b/c it hurts. And he's crying b/c I'm being so harsh and taking away something he loves.

I'm sorry this is such a ramble. I feel terrible that these final weeks before baby #2 arrives have been kinda miserable for both of us. We do not use physical punishment, of course, but being harsh and raising my voice all too often MUST be affecting him. I always try to apologize and be accountable for my actions when I think I'm out of line or if I've upset him, but lately, it's been happening too often.

Thanks for letting me get that out. Keep on keeping on, ladies...
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Bearsmama . Sounds tough!

At 2 1/2 maybe he doesn't need a nap anymore, even though you still need him to nap. How about doing a quiet time instead. This would mean he has to stay in his room and play quietly, listen to a book on tape perhaps, look at books, whatever you can think up that involves him being quiet and giving you a little break. Even putting on a movie.
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Bearsmama . Sounds tough!

At 2 1/2 maybe he doesn't need a nap anymore, even though you still need him to nap. How about doing a quiet time instead. This would mean he has to stay in his room and play quietly, listen to a book on tape perhaps, look at books, whatever you can think up that involves him being quiet and giving you a little break. Even putting on a movie.
I was thinking the same thing. My younger dd is just a bit past two, but she is in that wretched place where she still gets tired in the afternoon and needs some quiet time, but if she naps now, she's up until 11 p.m.

I well remember having a toddler and being very pregnant--very hard time! I know both of my nursing toddlers really clung to nursing if we were feeling out of sorts with one another. If I was grumpy, or snappy, or unhappy with them, then they wanted to be all over me. I'm sure they were using the nursing to try to reconnect with me (and not just drive me crazy like it seemed at the time!). Reminding myself of that usually helped me to lie still and nurse for a bit so that everyone calmed down. I just wrote all of that paragraph in past tense, but I'm going through something similar with my 2-yr-old. Nursing is VERY uncomfortable for me the week before AFarrives. It's like I'm pregnant all over again. And it really upsets my little one when I flinch and show my discomfort. The more I try to deflect her,the more stressed she becomes and the more determined she is to nurse. Usually if I'll just hold my tongue and let her nurse, she'll willingly stop nursing after just a minute. It doesn't always work, but it does more often than not.

Good luck with you impending arrival. Hope you'll check in here and let us know how it goes!
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dotcommama-Thanks for the hugs. It's what I needed today. And you may be right about him outgrowing his naps. The problem is I usually DO think he needs them b/c by 4pm he is bouncing off the walls w/out one. I think that the definition of insanity is doing something over and over and expecting a different result. And this is the path we've been on around here with napping,sleeping, and nursing. I have to change-not him.

I'll see if on those hard, struggling days he'll be amenable to quiet time...
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Fianna-Our posts must have crossed. Thanks as well for your support. Glad to hear your BTDT view. And you are right-when I flinch, yelp, whatever while nursing, he hunkers down even more and becomes a bear to de-latch.
I have to rethink all this and come up with a better way. Just like I said to dotcom-I keep expecting different results with these things that are triggers for my anger. I'm the one who has to change. Thanks also for the well-wishes...
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Hey ladies, another angry mama joining you. I want to stop yelling too. My dh has been out of town for five days and the last two (or is it three?? seems like forever!) have been awful. I'm even yelling at my 11 mo. old.

One of the things that I have the hardest time dealing with is dd being rough w/ ds. She pushes him over so he smacks his head on the tile floor, and then she smiles and laughs about it. It makes me furious. She also picks him up around his neck, kicks his head, etc. I usually ask her to take some time for herself in her room so she can cool off - but really she's not upset about it, I AM! Then I talk to her about why I'm upset and why she did it and and what she could do instead. Doesn't seem to be working!!

Bearsmama, you sound just like me last summer. My dd weaned b/c I told her she couldn't nurse if she wasn't going to go to sleep anymore - luckily she just said, 'ok'! Sometimes I think they just need a little push to move along. Have you tried counting while he's nursing? That helped for us - give him 10 minutes, or just 1 min., then count to ten or five at the end of the minute. Also, letting her 'cuddle' the breast (no lips on it) worked too. Good luck!
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Bearsmama, just like smeta said, I was also going to suggest counting. Especially if it hurts. If you use the same number each time then they get used to how long that is and it helps them to be ready. Do you stay in the bed with him and nap? If not, that might help him to enjoy the nap. With mine I get up and leave when they start playing around but they know I will stay as long as they are going to sleep.

Aussiemum, what you said about the good times is important. Of course we need to handle our anger because it really does affect our children in the long term, but I think focusing on the positive makes it easier to stay positive. Try and remember some of the good things you did as a parent or times you handled your anger really well!

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Aussiemum, how are things going for you? You've been on my mind a lot. If you are still checking this thread, I hope you'll take a minute to drop us a line.
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: Thanks for asking how things are going- giving me the warm fuzzies today.... you guys!

Been really busy with uni- had a few reports due, I've got grass seedlings germinating out of my ears that need to be transplanted for this experiment, like yesterday!!, & DH has had a week off work so we've been out & about, taking the kids to the beach, etc. Whew! Even with all that busyness, things haven't been too bad on the home front since my big blow up last week end. I still feel really awful about it, but it did make me think about taking some time to work on my own health- didn't have much choice actually. As I was busy ripping my hair out last Saturday, I also managed to hurt my neck with the yanking- couldn't move it for days, so I went to the chiro. Eight sessions later & I'm feeling much better. There is something restorative about having one person focussed on helping you get better, just you & only you, KWIM? Of course, when I feel better, I'm not as cranky, I'm more patient, & so it goes.......

Still, I have to take it one day at a time, & just try & do the best I can. Uni/work stress is a big factor in all this, I think, but I don't know quite how to escape it, & I have this feeling that if I quit now I'll regret it later. (I've got the most interesting & well-funded PhD project in the world going on right now-IMO ) Just can't walk away from it, yet I'm regretting taking this on before the kids were both in school. Jumped the gun, so to speak.....

And so it goes. I breathe. I count to 50 if I need to. I walk away if I have to. Worst comes to worst, valerian tea makes a nice sedative.....

Rambling now, & I, unfortunately, have to get back to work. Thinking of you all & wishing for patience & perserverance as we all struggle along together. I'm still here, even if I don't check in every day.

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aussiemum, don't talk about giving it up! I've been starting up a web business and taking it really slowly and at my own pace and even then it sometimes seems like too much for the family. But the thing is, that's the part that's for ME. If I don't do that I think I'll go crazy.For me it's really important to be at home most of the time with my kids, but I'm not a natural sahm so being a wahm is my compromise. One day your kids will be grown and you need to be whole without them. You can't give them a good happy upbringing if you begrudge them the time you spent with them.

Working hard on GD....

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stepping in...

I've been reading this thread for WAYYY to long now... but it is very useful. Normally I'm cool, but since moving- all the stress- I'm struggling. We moved to simplify, and yet I don't feel "freed". I feel like I have a huge list of things to do, and since we aren't unpacked completely I'm struggling to keep the house child friendly and picked up.

All of that is making me one irritable mommy. I'm going to try positive self talk and some of the other suggestions in this thread. It pains me to see all the gentleness and patience I've invested in my children going to waste because in the two weeks we've been in the new place they've already picked up some bad habits. My 3 yr old new favorite phrase is "Right Now" and I taught it to her At least I didn't yell it, and she isn't saying it to rudely. I've never spoken to her like that before, so I don't know where it came from. I just didn't have it in me to explain why I needed her to get come with me. I'm tired.


It's 4:07 and I'm up because I can't sleep... so maybe that has something to do with it.

ETA- I just finished the first thread and although there was some ideals I strongly disagreed with I found many more great suggestions. Thanks dotcomomma for starting this thread.

I'm ordering the parenting cards now... maybe such inspiration will help me. I've always had a parenting "checklist" on my fridge, I need to get it back up. Actually, now that I am thinking about it I'm thinking about buying some blank business cards and making my own. Or something. Sheesh- should I push the process order button or not? :LOL

One thing heartmama suggested once was putting a photo of yourself at your child's age up so you can relate to your inner child and remember what it was like to be that age. Put it all in perspective for you, you know?
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Aussiemum, your comments about work really resonated with me. I, too, think my work causes the majority of my temper issues with my girls. Usually it's in one of two ways. I'll spend the morning feeding, playing with, paying attention to the girls and I'll think that I have everything set up for a bit of work time for myself, and five minutes into it either the girls are fighting over something, someone *really needs* food, drink, etc. *right now*, or my little one is just determined that I'm not going to be on the computer. Or I'll have something really irritate me that's work related--usually a really annoying student email or a technical glitch--and I'll catch myself being less than patient with one of my girls because of it. I'm working VERY hard to not take out work stresses on my girls, though, and simply being aware of that potential has really helped an amazing amount. I'm also reminding myself every morning when I wake up that my girls come first. Work will still be there. Student emails don't have to be answered immediately, and so on. Sometimes I just have to take a deep breath and remind myself of my priorities. I am SO lucky to be able to be home with my girls and to be able to have a career too. I need to stop taking that for granted.
Also, in three weeks I won't have my oldest child to play with all day. She starts kindergarten and I'm really grieving over that. I have SO loved our unscheduled years together. I love her company and I'm so sad that that carefree phase of her life is coming to an end. I'm literally in tears about it. It just got here too fast!

Rainbow, I'm so glad you joined us. Moving is so hard! It sounds like you really are handling it better than 99% of the population would. And the years of gentleness haven't been wasted. That investment is what will allow you to get through these rough times with no lasting negative effects. It is the norms and consistencies of our parenting that form the foundation for our children, not the occasional hiccups.

I LOVE the idea of putting up a picture of ourselves as children. I think I'll raid my mom's photo albums this weekend.
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I am so happy this thread is still going and giving support to so many great Moms.

I am still struggling with yelling, but I am getting better. Sometimes I go for weeks without yelling and then somehow slide back into the trap.

Right now I'm adjusting to my oldest ds being out of school for the summer. It is wonderful to have him around, but at first it caused more time for bickering between the two oldest, which can definitely drive my stress level up. Things are evening out now though and the boys seem to be getting along better than ever and we are all enjoying the summer.

I have started an ap-type parenting message board with a friend of mine (just today in fact) and in it I have a whole forum dedicated to Anger Management . So far we're just a few members, but please feel free to join in and post over there if you'd like.
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Checking in. thanks for the kind words of support, guys. I whinge endlessly about my PhD. Ignore me if it gets to be too much.

Dot, I'm glad to hear your boys are getting along better these days. You had some rough patches there for a while.

Fianna, my oldest went to grade 1 at the beginning of this year. I remember it was so hard to let her go, but she was so ready for it. Mostly she still enjoys school 6 months on. She said she didn't want to go the other day, & I said, well, if you really want I can stay home & teach you here, but you still have to learn things. In 2 seconds flat she decided school was the more appealing option. Which is prolly a good thing, otherwise I really would have to quit Uni.... hmmmm..... maybe I should start talking up this homeschool stuff.... anyway, we're still running fairly steady & smooth today at our house.

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Dot, I'm glad to hear your boys are getting along better these days. You had some rough patches there for a while.
Thanks - I'll just : hoping they continue getting along so well!

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Fianna, my oldest went to grade 1 at the beginning of this year. I remember it was so hard to let her go, but she was so ready for it. Mostly she still enjoys school 6 months on. She said she didn't want to go the other day, & I said, well, if you really want I can stay home & teach you here, but you still have to learn things. In 2 seconds flat she decided school was the more appealing option.
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I'm jumping in late here, too, but wanted to say "thanks" for this thread.

I have a tendency to cry around here more then yell. But inside I am boiling and very angry with myself, dh, ds, whoever. I cry a lot. I feel its just as destructive as yelling, though. And my "internal dialogue" to myself is so self-defeating. I will practice this and am sure will start feeling better about myself and be able to handle my toddler's overall "nuttiness" better.... Thanks again.

POSITIVE DIALOGUE, JULIE!!!! I'M A STRONG, SWEET, FUN, AND LOVING MAMA. I CAN DO THIS - I AM MY CHILD'S "AMBASSADOR" TO THIS WORLD! SHOW HIM THE WONDER OF IT ALL!



ok. now repeat, repeat, repeat.....
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wow, i'm having issues with anger. i'm so glad i'm not the only one. i mean, i knew i couldn't be the *only* one, but yesterday i behaved in such a way that i felt like a monster. my mom used to be like this too. i HAVE to change. i'm usually so patient, very mellow, but then something happens and i explode once in a while. i hate how i am when i'm like that, but it's hard to stop myself.

is this too much information? just wanted to introduce myself, hope it's not too late to join in.
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Definitely not TMI, mamaley, and definitely not too late to join!

Have a headache this morning, we're supposed to be going camping this afternoon and nothing is packed, and I don't have the energy to do half of what needs to be done. Needless to say, I'm having to really practice my positive inner dialogue this morning.

Off to consume another Goody's powder...
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