Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: Temecula Valley, So. Cal
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Man, what I roller coaster I am on. So ds has now discovred spitting. I think it is becasue of ds #2 is a drooly monster and is blowing raspberries (he's 5 mos). Inside, I was climbing the walls. He was spitting all over the house! DH doesn't spit so I figure it was just a cool new thing he discovered. I ignored the behavior and walked away searching my brain on how to handle this one and calming down at the same time. Light bulb came on, I asked him if he was done, he said yes, i handed him a paper towel and asked him to clean up his spit and when he was all done i told him that if he needs to spit he should go outside or spit in the sink or the toilet. That was a major accomplishment for me!
Now for the dark moment this morning. I have been overtired for too long and I usually hit the wall by Friday. I don't even know what started it but he had me in a fit of tears. I called DH and was ranting on the phone and crying and i turn around and ds is standing on the counter! I lost it. I YELLED at him to get down off the counter while I was crying and I scared the you-know-what out of him. So then I start crying because I felt awful and guilty and sad. I had been goiong down that road all morning. Intellectually knowing what was going to happen if I didn't do something different but not knowing what to do and reaction took over.
UUGGHH!!! Why is it sooo hard for me to get it together. I lose it every Friday. Re-coop over the weekend, do fairly well all week. Start crying on Thursday and lose my mind on Friday.