My dh has been working late, not being home for family meal time, not seeing kids except on the weekend. And they are misbehaving for it or acting out, which ever it is, it's horrible for me. I've lost my patience with them on more than one occassion. I feel demon possessed when I do loose it, the words that fly out of my mouth are nothing like what I would normally be like, it's shameful.
He's goes in to work at 5am or earlier and is home after 8 or 9pm. He's trying to get hours to have off for the baby and for a trip he wants to take in the fall.
I don't like doing this parenting thing alone. I don't like having to argue and fight with the kids to get them to go to bed. He isn't home, so their routine is screwed up. I know they are upset, but I need to lie down and have PEACE and QUIET for at least 45 minutes before I go to sleep.
Every night I go to bed with the house spotless in case the big event happens. I have the kids pick all their things up out of the LRM, I get all the dishes done, I leave out my crock pot, the infusion stuffs, a pot for making tea, etc. The bathroom is clothing free, ready for company type thing or laboring. I leave the washer and dryer empty for birthing items to go right in.
I guess it's nice to wake up to a clean house, but then what do I do all day? Empty the PM dishes, load with breakfast, lunch, & dinner. Do some laundry. Get the littlest piece of dust off the floor or furniture.
I'm chilling out with a glass of sweet red wine... Dinner is basically cleaned up from. I have to make 3 beds this evening -- ugh! I forgot dh would be later than usual tonight. And I will tidy up the house. Then the dreaded get all 3 kids to bed by myself...