*heavy sigh* I'm so disappointed that it's difficult to put into words. I've been so excited lately because I really felt like my goal of getting ds back on 100% mm was attainable, and now I just don't know. Over the last couple of weeks he's not only not gained, but lost some weight. With a heavy heart I increased his formula supplement tonight.
I know that I should be more grateful. The fact that he nurses at all after almost 2 months off the breast is fantastic. But geez...I've used this darn lact-aid for 5 months now, and I was filled with glee at the thought of eventually throwing it out the window. My dh tried to remind me earlier tonight how miserable I was when I wasn't nursing him, and said it's not the worst thing in the world if we need to use the lact-aid for another year and a half. I'm just still so sad. Pick-me-ups would be appreciated. Thanks, mamas.
edit: Gosh darnit - you'd think I could at least spell "losing" properly...urgh!
You are doing the best for you and your baby and if that includes a little formula, so be it! No need to feel guilty or as less of a breastfeeder for it! I also went through this when I went back to work and had to start giving him formula regularly, but I just couldn't stress about it too much!! Keep up the good work!