Hi ladies! Let me give you a little history first. My first baby I wanted to breastfeed SO badly. I didn't buy a pump or bottles, it just never even occured to me. After I had her, I didn't see a lactation consultant 2 days, and didn't realize she wasn't latched on. I also have inverted nipples. Even then, she never fully latched, and I left the hospital the next morning. That night, we ended up taking her to the ER b/c she was severly dehydrated, and it turned out she hadn't eaten at all. The ER doc put her on supplemental formula. A few weeks after that, I contacted LLL, b/c my milk supply was quickly deminishing and she still wouldn't nurse. I tried pumping, feeding her with a spoon versus the bottle, everything they told me. Nothing worked, and she never nursed. The support from the breastfeeding community in general, and the local LLL was less than stellar, and I already was suffering from PPD. In my state, I decided that Katie was rejecting me personally, and it was really interferring with our bonding. After three months, DH put his foot down and we went to bottle exclusivelly.
The whole process was so traumatic, that I couldn't go through it again with DS, 18 months later. I didn't even try, and I regret that now, but at the time, it was the only thing we could think of to avoid the emotional problems we had before.
With our baby, now 10 months, I was on too many meds to nurse, it wasn't an option, and could've killed him.
Now we're trying for #4, and, again, I want more than anything to breastfeed my baby. But I'm at a total loss. I really don't know where to turn. I know I won't be able to handle the criticism and judging I got from the local LLL again (the general consensus was that I wasn't trying hard enough, OBVIOUSLY they had never walked a mile in my shoes!!), and I'm really usually very uncomfortable in natural or AP circles, because while I do many things, like baby wear and cosleep, in some things, I'm very different. And bringing out a bottle usually gets more looks, glares, and nasty comments than I can handle. So, God bless the internet!!
What can I do now to help me breastfeed my baby? I hear there are sheilds I can wear during pregnancy (I could be preg now), but I can't seem to find them. What about diet? Herbs? My midwives are very supportive of me, and know the history, and are committed to helping me when the time comes, but I'm still wondering if there are things I can do now to help me later. Any advice!