I apologize in advance if this post doesn't make much sense, but I'll give it a try.
I really, really LOVE being a cosleeping/breastfeeding mama, and I have no idea what life would be like if my children were sleeping in another room when they are tiny.
I spend many nights waking to peacefully sleeping babies and I can't explain the bliss I feel knowing they're safe and sound, and feeling warm and loved.
But, like any other human mom, I have also had nights when I wanted to crawl out of my skin. Fortunately, I have a very supportive and understanding husband that helps with creative ways for me to get my "touched out" self a bit of space when needed; but when you are night-nursing, and determined to allow that child to fulfill that need until met, there will always be a piece of you that has to wait patiently for that uninterrupted sleep that you enjoyed pre-mommyhood.
Well, my moment has arrived
: Sort of. LOL! Three weeks ago, at the age of 35 months, my son suddenly started sleeping through the night!!! Now, of course, he has had other nights or even spans of nights, but he has never gone three weeks straight without night nursing.
And I am pregnant, but barely so, and I hadn't even noticed nipple tenderness when he started doing this. My older son was only 17.5 months old when I "strongly encouraged" night weaning for him, due to some pretty strong first-trimester sickies, and though he is well-adjusted, and did continue to nurse another two months before weaning completely, there is a part of me that feels regret there.
So. I am excited to have walked..dozed..whatever through three years of night-nursing to see it end the way the books promised.
I'll miss those sweet nights of nursing him, but I'm also enjoying the success of a sleeping baby who wasn't forced to night wean.
Thanks for letting me share!