so many things are going on inside the world of babies. the moment you think you're set in a predictable rhythm is the moment something evolves. they're not manipulating you---they need you there and as tough and as inconvenient as it can be it does pass...it does get easier! baby's needs and wants are one in the same, especially the first year. and you'll never ever regret being there for them no matter how much of a 'pain' it seems in the moment. so roll with it---hold them, nurse them, play...--- take it ONE night/day at a time. ask yourself "if the world were going to end tomorrow would i regret this moment?" if not then you know you're doing what's right. ...it does get easier.