i really can't do this anymore, this constant night nursing crap.
it all came to a head about 3 weeks ago (consequently i got my first PP period a copule of days ago). i've had it w/nursing him every 40 minutes throughout the night.
well we've tried a little bit of everything to try to get longer sleep stretches. seriously all i want is a 2 hr stretch. (6 wakings instead of 15--pure heaven!!)NOTHING IS WORKING
last night he was up and down all night, 30 min, 40 min, 60 min--i got about 4 hrs of sleep.
i'm so flippin tired i cannot even explain it. this has been going on for about 7-8months!!
we're trying a little Pantley pull-off, a little sleep weaning a la Gordon, and just some good 'ol refusing the breast, which makes it worse
last night was awful. it was 1:40 and he woke up for the 10th time since going to bed at 8. i decided i was not going to nurse him. he got out of bed and walked around the room screaming. i calmed the screaming, but he was up for an hour and a half. i feel like such a piece of sh*t mother. in fact i'm SURE i'm a piece of sh*t mother. and he confirmed it, b/c after finally falling asleep to me singing "baby beluga" for the millionth time, he woke up 5 min later and gave me a kiss (which he NEVER does) and played w/my face and layed down and went to sleep, "i love you mommy even though you suck"
what am i trying to say!! i have no idea. i just cannot take it anymore and he is refusing to give a little. 2 nights ago, he slept in 2 hr bursts, i was like a new woman, but WTF?
the *only* thing we have accomplished is that he now falls asleep w/o nursing. we do this for all nursings now, so instead of nursing peacefully to sleep (ME!!), i'm patting his back for hrs at a time. flipping great!
we have a well child visit next week and i'm going to bring up his sleep problems. i'm sure i'll hear some stupid CIO advice
: but i'm wondering if there are some medical issues i'm missing.
he has NEVER been a good sleeper. i wonder if i'm missing some hidden medical problem?? i have been off dairy for almost a year (gladly), so i hoped that would have done something. i'm thinking about getting him tested for allergies, but i heard that there are two tests, one gives high false negatives, the other high false positives--anyone know what i'm talking about.
i do not think he has apnea, i honestly think he is just used to being nursed all too frequently. what other sleep d/os are there??
i just don't know what to do, i'm past my breaking point.
hubby is somewhat supportive, he is currently taking our son out for a walk as i cannot stand the screaming anymore (he only slept for 8 hrs last night---and is quite tired). but hubby prefers that i do the nighttime parenting, although after a discussion today of me leaving him, it seems he will be more willing.
okay, thanks for listening.