Join Date: May 2008
Location: outside Philadelphia, PA
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I'm an introvert. I love being alone. It's the only time I ever feel truly at peace. I have never felt lonely, not once.
I get more than enough human contact at work, so it's difficult for me to maintain friendships. It doesn't make any difference to me what kind of person I'm talking to or what about; I have no desire to socialize with anyone once my 'quota' has been filled. At this point since I work in customer service and have a BF, I have zero desire to see or talk with any of my friends but I force myself to do so sometimes, simply because I like them! And maybe someday I will have the resources to spend time with them again.
My BF is the only person who doesn't make me touched out. Being with him is as nice as being alone. We don't interact a lot when we spend time together (more a parallel play situation), I think that helps.
I used to be VERY shy and socially awkward but no longer am. I do still loathe being the center of attention. I can make small talk with anyone and am comfortable around large groups, etc. I just don't enjoy it, at all. I would like to be invisible so I could easily walk among people and be able to ignore them and be ignored. I don't like people looking at me, pleasantries exhaust me.
It's nice not to ever have to depend on other people for anything, but at the same time my need for space and quiet makes ordinary life rather challenging. I really need to find a way to work from home, I would be able to have more quality relationships that way.