Moderator please move me to NICU Forum (I couldn't find it)......
I want to tell you all our story of what happened when my
22 mos ds and I revisited the NICU the other day.
Recently dh and i took our ds to revisit the NICU. I wasn't sure how my ds would react but i didn't expect this...
On the drive to the hospital, dh and i were discussing with ds how we are revisiting the hospital he was born at and say hi to all the nurses.
I took ds to the lobby of NICU and explained to him again we are at the nursery he was born at. He seemed quiet, i took him to the hallway of the NICU and he looked around kind of concerned but ds is normally quiet in new places anyway.
Then the nurses came out and said hi talking to ds and i and everything seemed ok, once again ds was quiet. Then we went inside the NICU and ds screamed. He cried and pointed to the door to get out. He was really distraught.
The nurses thought it was because he is associating the NICU with a doctor's visit but i said that he never cries at doctor visits.
I decided to leave and said our goodbyes. Later, i spoke to ds and said were you scared of the NICU? he said "uh huh". I asked do you remember that place? he said "uh huh". Do you remember mommy was there when you were born? He got quiet and cried.
I was floored. I know babies remember their births and their traumas but it didn't hit me until now. i am so hurt about what happened. I guess i was trying to deny that he would remember any of this and he will grow up unscarred emotionally. Now i feel so guilty and sad.
Anyone else revisted the NICU? Thanks for listening.