Ali - ,. Used to be a , , , SAHM to three , all by , then they grew up.
Now I am a WOHM, college student, single mama. to be , , , , , to a littleagain someday.
like others said, i don't think it ever does!
i came across dd's keep-sake ostomy bag the other day..i just sat and held her and cried...its almost as if its harder to deal with now that we are out then it was to deal with when we were in(if that makes any sense)
We washed our hands in the bathroom and I started having heart palpitations.
Why? It smelled like the same soap that was used in the NICU.
It will be 7 years in July....
So I feel your pain....it lessens but I don't think it ever really goes away...
Jen, former attorney and now SAHM to 11 yo ds and 8 yo ds
Lisa, married and mama to 3 kids-ds (7yo), dd (6yo), & ds (2yo)
I don't know if it ever does. My son is 2 1/2 and I still think about it. I have a picture of him on my desk when he was in an incubator taken through the glass. He looks so peaceful even though he has tubes everywhere. It reminds me to be thankful. I actually think it helps. The outcome could easily have been different.
One thing that helps me is reaching out to other mothers going through the same thing, I have forgotten some of the lingo, but the feelings are the same.
Kerri blessed single mama to Teresa 8/2/02, Madeleine 5/28/04, Andrew 6/25/06, and Isabelle 11/27/08
They're not typos. . . I can't spell!
I'm not the only one
DD was in the nursery for a little less than a week but I felt like I died a little every day. My story was they kept bringing her out to me telling me we'd get to go home the next day and then they'd take her back.
I get anxious now whenever anyone takes my dd. I still wake up scared. Who's going to take her.
And mine was a relatively easy experience...
mama to E (01-2007) and wife to C
I do like coming to this board once and awhile for the companionship feeling I get.
One thing, dh and I HATE hospitals and they definately arouse some post tramatic stress in us. I don't even like going to the doctors with ds because it reminds me of being told what to do regarding ds when he was in the nicu. Such a feeling of powerlessness!
Yesterday while driving on the highway, we passed the exit to the hospital and both of us mentioned it at the same time.
Today walking thru the Lilac Garden Park we were talking about the Lilac Festival coming up and the Lilac Princesses and the crowning of the Queen w dd1. Its in a few weeks and on that day last year, right before Maggie was due to come home, she started having apnea again and then needed a blood transfusion. As we walked thru the park, that was the first thing Bob remembered and mentioned it.
This morning at church, our deacon came over to us to talk about a couple who needed the baptism class. (we are the couple who teaches it). This is a special situation and he baptised the baby on Friday. The baby boy was 1lb 12 oz and barely 25 weeks (this is exactly Maggie's stats). I thought Bob was going to go into cardiac arrest standing there. Well he wanted us to at least reach out to the couple and assist them in the way only one of us would know how.
Sarah- that also happened to us a few times seeing other babies go thru things like that.
I did have an interesting trigger the other day. I was going to attend a birth at a hospital where we took her to PT/OT/ST for about two years, twice a week and it was extremely odd to drive into that parking lot...I felt instantly transported back several years.
I agree with the pp who said that having had a full-term pg/birth has been incredibly healing. Is that why I keep having them? j/k