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#1 of 21 Old 06-10-2007, 03:53 PM - Thread Starter
 
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I was due on June 2. Two days later, early on the 4th, we went in for an appointment. I was slightly dilated – stretchy to 3 cm, 70% effaced. The midwife asked us if we wanted to signal some ‘encouragement’ just to see if that might start labor. So, she swept my membranes and I took a dose of cohosh. She said this would either start something in the next 24 hours or else we could wait a few more days and try it again.

Contractions started almost immediately. Not painful but more noticeable than the Braxton-hicks contractions I had been having. As soon as we got home (around 9:30 am) I tried to stay moving. Took the dog on a short walk, cleaned a window, sat upright in our glider, packed a few things. By noon they were still pretty regular at 5-10 minutes apart and pretty mild. We went out to lunch and walked more – by the end of lunch (around 1) I was cranky through the contractions which were still very regular.

Back home to wait. Dh came in to check on me around 4 and we timed the contractions. All were 3-5 minutes apart, 40-60 seconds. Some irregularities but definitely settled in to a pattern. We called our doula and midwife to give them a heads up.

Called the doula back around 6 pm so that she could come to the house to help us labor here. I was already not speaking through the contractions. She arrived at 6:30 and encouraged me to get in the hot tub outside for awhile. This was a really comforting place to be, but even so these were consistent and strong pains. Pretty soon I really had to concentrate on breathing and started some low moaning. I started feeling just a little bit ‘pushy’ (with 2-3 minute intervals between maybe 45 second contractions) and that was the signal to head in. I put on a robe and we headed out to the birth center.

Arrived at the birth center around 9 pm and got right in the tub. Attended by midwife, her nurse assistant, Dh, and my doula. The tub was good just not as deep as our Jacuzzi. More moaning and breathing, a little pushing. I was surprised by how quickly time passed. I think around 11 I could feel the head moving down – just a few inches in actually. Everyone was betting on this child being born before midnight, which maybe jinxed me a bit.

Around midnight we still weren’t there yet. I got out of the tub to see if changing positions would get things going. I was scared to move – every shift meant adjusting to new sensations and I lost my groove. We tried every position in the book – birth stool, hands and knees, reclining. The baby was not making the ‘curve’ past my pubic bone. At some point I realized I was pushing even without the strong contractions, which is not efficient at all but I just felt more in control that way. I remember feeling betrayed that the pushing didn’t feel good to me – you always hear what a relief it is when that sensation comes.

My labor had stalled. The midwife suggested that my rather strong legs (lot’s of hiking) could have something to do with it – she had seen dancers who had trouble in this stage relaxing the legs enough to use other muscles. She tried using her fingers to apply counter pressure to my pubic bone, also from the top. Baby’s head was showing but just not moving enough (but no signs of distress). I was in a ton of pain.

We were pushing the limits of being in this phase, even at the birth center. We realized that I had not peed basically since lunch, and a full bladder could be stalling the labor. I couldn’t pee on my own so agreed to a catheter, even though I hadn’t had any pain meds. This hurt too – I think they tried two different catheters and really had to push against the pressure of the baby. Eventually they got it in but I didn’t notice any relief. I also took another dose of cohosh to try and start more contractions.

They started talking about hospital transfer around 2 am. It had just been too long. I was exhausted and afraid of the pain, not in control. I remember a part of me feeling like I was giving up – thinking maybe that would give me some pain relief. But I was not thinking clearly. The baby was so close we were likely talking about an instrument delivery without pain meds, or very emergency c-section… Not to mention the whole mess of a transfer, painful ambulance ride, and my midwife had another woman at the birth center at that time, so she might not be able to go with us.

While she and the nurse were out making arrangements, I got on the bed kneeling and holding on to the headboard railing during contractions. All of a sudden they became very strong and I started pushing with them. Still scary and painful, but I asked for a mirror and finally could see some progress. A very small burst and my water finally broke (just a dribble). At some point I could hear the ambulance drive up and people talking outside. I think my doula convinced the midwife to give me a bit more time – when they came back in we were seeing more of the head than ever before. The midwife told the EMTs they could stay just in case if they wanted, but we were going to have a baby there soon. I think they left.

My doula and midwife were very happy all of a sudden – I think I still wasn’t sure but at this point just had to get it done. Maybe 5-6 pushes later her head was out, then the body. Gabriella was born at 3:02 a.m. I turned over and they passed me my baby. I announced her sex first. She had no vernix and generally looked more like a 41 weeker than 40. I was happy and tired and a bit in shock by the whole event. I immediately started to panic about how close we had come to the transfer, and also kind of doubting myself that I had caused some of the problems. There were no tears but a pretty good road rash injury. We let he cord stop pulsating on its own before dh cut it. Two big clots and the placenta came out a few minutes later.

Anyway, I lost a lot of blood right away and this started the second phase of concern. We did some painful uterine massage, and pitocin shot. This wasn’t enough so the midwife had to ‘go in’ after some blood clots, which was incredibly painful. Moved to a pitocin IV and another medication by mouth, I also had some nubain at some point to help with the pain. It was touch and go for several hours, and at one point they were talking hospital transfer again, but this time without my baby. No way I wanted that to happen so I actually started massaging my uterus too. After a few hours things looked better. We stayed until about 2 pm, which is several hours more than normal for the birth center.

I was so happy to get home. Thankful that we weren’t being ‘held’ at the hospital, thankful that my baby never left my side. It’s several days post partum now and I am pretty weepy. I am having some trouble processing the birth still. On one hand I know I did it, and I was awesome under some difficult circumstances… on the other hand I can’t help but feel that I contributed to the stall and the long pushing phase. I’m so in love with Gabriella and every day feel a little bit better about the birth.

a few pics - mostly post-birth - posted here.
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well done, all things considered i think you did great! but i know that feeling of being a bit traumatised by the birth and re thinking it all the time. I was like that with my first. Talk a lot and take time to process it.

she is beautiful
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CJ, YOU DID IT! A drug-free labor and a drug-free baby! those were your goals, weren't they? i totally relate to the fears about being kicked nout of the bc (i have the same), but IT DIDN'T HAPPEN!! not getting why you are blaming yourself -- it sounds like it was YOUR change in position that did it. nice work, mama.
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CJ - Congrats on your little girl and hooray for her mama who had the courage and strength to perservere when the going got tough. Your story actually sounds like a textbook "why women need to listen to their own bodies during labor" thing. Notice that YOU got labor going again once you were left alone in the room!!! I think that everything you were thinking was totally normal and that you did an excellent job getting yourself through it. Enjoy your time bonding as a new family. Gabriella is gorgeous (and wow, I REALLY hope I look that cute when I am in labor - I LOVE that pic. of you in the hot tub). Thanks for posting your story.
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I think you did an AMAZING job! Great work!

Talk through your story. Talk to all of us, or your friends, or whomever. I think you will find that we all think you birthed your little girl like a Superwoman. I hope you see that for yourself soon, too.

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Congratulations! She is beautiful and you both pulled through a pretty intense birth! I've found that most women have a pretty intense birth the first time - I know I did. And the only that thing that has helped to process that intensity is to talk about it over and over again. Also talk to your MW and doula. I think you did a fantastic job.

Enjoy your babymoon and give yourself plenty of pats on the back!
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What a beauty! Congratulations! It was hard work, but remember, YOU did it!

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You did it! Don't be so hard on yourself though, ok?

Now go enjoy your babymoon.
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Wow... that is a powerful birth story. Thank you for sharing it. I think as first timers we only have preconceived ideas of either how easy or difficult (or both) it is going to be. I appreciate that you didn't glaze over the difficulties of trying to 'listen' to your body while in pain. I'm happy that you were strong enough even with all the uncertainty to have the birth you wanted even if it did go longer and was way more difficult than expected. And Gabriella is beautiful! Really! Congratulations!

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Thanks for sharing your story, CJ. I think you were amazing. You can always talk to us about it as you process. I love the pictures.
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Beautiful pictures! What a lovely little one. Congrats.
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She's beautiful! And fwiw, it took me right up to the birth of my son to process the birth of my daughter! I think you did amazingly well. And its normal & okay to run the gamut of emotions post partum - your hormones are all over the place.

Try to relax & nurse as much as possible - the calming hormones do wonders!

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Wow!

You're right...we had very similar experiences, and although I'm thrilled you avoided the transfer, I can imagine that going home so soon after such an intense experience is adding to the stress you feel. Give yourself time! Birth is so powerful and changing even when "nothing" happens and in this case...well....you are ONE STRONG MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so so so impressed with your strength and courage. Enjoy your little one and give yourself time to process the experience. And congrats!

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Congrats on your precious little one. Take good care of yourself and enjoy your babymoon.

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What an amazing story CJ! I'm sorry it was so long and difficult and painful. Give yourself tons of credit for birthing that beautiful baby without drugs or transfer! You should be so proud of yourself for doing what you planned to do, even though it wasn't exactly how you planned to do it. I'm glad to hear you're processing the experience and feeling better every day.

Gabriella is gorgeous, as is her name! Congratulations!

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Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl!!

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Thank you for sharing both the story and the beautiful pics of your gorgeous girl!
Congratulations!!

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oh, sweetie...first off, congrats on a healthy and beautiful baby girl!
secondly, the problems you faced during delivery are not your fault. problems, stalling and fear are all normal parts of labor, especially first time labors! please dont beat yourself up! you did an amazing job and look at what you have to prove that fact! HUGS!
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oh man- first births are frequently long stories! i'm sorry for all the trauma you went thru but you did it and here she is- she is beautiful. rest rest rest! congrats!!!!!!

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Congratulations! Gorgeous

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Yeah! Congrats mama!
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