Overly emotional 9 year old daughter
I have a 9 year old daughter that I raise on my own and we are happy MOST of the time but.. She is incredibly sensitive and very emotional. She cries when she can't get her socks on, clings to me in the store, still insists on sleeping in my bed, and is so sensitive that I can't even look at her crooked without her bursting into tears. She fakes injuries and says she's hurt when clearly she isn't. I give her as much attention as I can but I feel like it will never be enough. She is an only child and is begging for a baby brother or baby sister but part of me is terrified that I'll end of feeling like i did before.
This is beginning to wear on me. I would come home from school/clinical exhausted and the last thing that I want is for her to cling onto me and I feel bad about it. I spend a lot of my time looking forward to a family member taking her so that I can have a moment's peace. She's so needy that it just drains me.
I had terrible postpartum depression after she was born. I experienced, nightmares, hallucinations, I regretted having her. It was awful. I should have seen a doctor but my partner at the time made me feel bad. I struggled with breastfeeding, sleep, colic and all of the seemingly normal things that new mamas struggle with. So I said nothing and did my best.
I'm wondering if it's possible to still have postpartum depression. I just didn't ever feel the glow and wonderment of pregnancy or being a mother.
It's gotten better since I graduated. We spend more time together but she's so sensitive that I spend most of my time walking on eggshells. She's overly emotional and I keep telling her that she can't go through life like this. Nobody will want to spend time with somebody who is always crying. And she fake cries a lot of the time and I have warned her about not being taken seriously when there actually is a problem if she's faking it all of the time.
My current partner is very supportive and loving. She calls him dad and he loves her dearly. We are planning on moving in together in a couple of months and are really looking forward to being a family. I realize that part of her issues stem from her biological father not being around. He is out of our lives for both of our safety.
Is anybody else experiencing this? Am I crazy? I love her with all of my being but sometimes I sigh with relief at the thought that it's only 9 years until she is out of the house and off to college.
I love her so much but I don't know what to do with her. Can somebody help me?