my dd is making me insane, mostly in the evening, and to add to that dd2 doesn't seem to sleep the way newborns are supposed to (fm my memory at least) the worst time is when she is up from 6p-11p, which coincides w/ dd1's "witching hour" AND she cries a lot, I have to hold her just right (she has to lay on her belly over the length of my arm, w/ my hand under her belly, head resting in the crook of my arm, not so cuddly in this position and no mei tai for me!!!!!
: thus impossible to get anything done!!!!!!!! she also has to change positions constantly.....)
dd1 practicallytrashes the house, refuses to clean after herself, runs and runs wrecklessly, jumping on furniture/the bed, she has actually attempted hanging from blinds, and once even got a hold of the forbidden blind cord which usually is waaaay out of her reach and she was trying to do the tarzan w/ it!!!!! The things she comes up w/ sometimes! She took the books we keep in our room for her which must be around 50 and started piling them up, then she took her crayon box (lots and lots of crayons) and DUMPED THEM on the book pile, come to find out there were a bunch of beads that were in the crayon box, while she was doing this I was TRYING to get dd2 to calm down from crying for a while, didn't realize what she was doing, when I checked I about vomited from the mess, I asked her what she was doing.... she was cooking......
And at this time of the evening my body and mind are tired/in pain and in need of relaxation, but Hypatia is begging to play, no giving up for her!
My anger is so hard to control, me and dp have....... issues, I confront him, and he will go next door instead of allowing me to communicate my problems w/ him, so then I'm VERY VERY furious, that is a horrible combination, she ends up getting yelled at for something relatively silly, then I feel super guilty, and that makes me even more angry at dp, if he comes home when I feel like that I explode on him, that makes me and his situation even worse sometimes, so my new focus is figuring out how to control my temper (HA!)