I spent three hours finding the gifts I stashed the last year in the house and organised them and making lists last night. I was so drained when I finished. Then of course Libby woke up and had a fussy night. I remember putting her in the co-sleeper next to me after two hours of nursing and she was crying and I was crying and some how we both passed out that way. Today I went out with the hope of just getting something nice that fit for picking hubby up. Nothing fits me. I got so depressed from shopping and I hurt so much, and bleeding came back. Got home, baby was again fussy, nursed lots and again after we both fell asleep crying. I feel like the worst mother in the world but lack of sleep and feeling so drained has me unable to even focus my vision at times. I can not wait till hubby comes home. This is honestly the worst I have felt this whole time.
Pleasr take it easy Gina!
Army wife to wonder hubby. Mama to 4 and Surrogate mother x2.: Zoey Born 5/7/2010