Ok, so I noticed a HUGE difference in my attitude lately...... the poor dog..... i feel sooooo bad for him! I have been SNAPPING on everyone lately...... I thought 2nd trimester you get all relaxed and everything.... apparently not. I am a military wife, and I moved 6 hours away from the only life I knew for 19 years, couple months later I was married at 19, and have been very happily married for 2 1/2 years. My husband has got a great deal of attitude from me lately, but thank God work took him across country for 2 1/2 weeks. My brother, who is 15 months younger than me, moved in with us about 2 months ago, and these past couple of weeks I have been yelling at him for everything..... I even yell that he doesnt vaccuum my carpets right..... i should be glad that someone is doing it for me! Im not an invalid, but I do have a sub-chorionic hematoma (pretty large blood clot) in my uterus, and at 6 1/2 weeks preggers, I was told to treat myself like I was on bed rest. Well, basically I cant stand him! He does do a lot for me, especially when my husband isnt here, but it just seems I cant appreciate him.
Well, I dont have a lot of friends down here, and I have lived here for the past 3 years. A girl who was my neighbor, and turned into my best, and pretty much only friend for the past 3 years and has been an awesome support system for me (our husbands got deployed together, and they will be again next year)...... well, I completely ruined my whole friendship with her. I snapped (with some good reason), but mostly once I started I couldnt stop. I pretty much said some things that I knew she would NEVER forgive me for, and I hurt her really bad. Well..... the whole friendship went down the drain in a period of an hour, and I know there is just no getting it back. It really hurts me, not because I lost a friend, but because I hurt her so much. I just know there is absolutely no reconciling, and that kills me. Well, when I was yelling at my brother the other day, he said "you're going to lose me as a friend too", and it has been bothering me.
I am not depressed at all, and its not normal for me to be like this (other than I am a Gemini) and I could get hot-blooded at certain times, like when AF was near, but at this point, I dont know what to do about it. Its like I cant control myself, and a few weeks ago, I even punched my brother in the face a few times.
Is there any reason that I turned into a raging bi*ch..... I cant stand being like this, and hurting the people I love.
This is a completely planned and wanted pregnancy. Our financial situation is pretty strong, and we feel completely ready for this, but more and more people keep telling me I am distancing myself, and I have been acting strange?!? I am not stressed, nor do I think I am depressed. 99% of the time I am a very happy go-lucky kind of person, but lately, it seems like there is no stopping me. What should I do? And can somebody please tell me I am semi-normal?