well i tend to be a worried, but other people make me paranoid. or more paranoid. my mother makes me paranoid because she reminds me that i am a worrier. my sister says that she hopes i have a kid that has something like chronic ear infections or collic so that i will miss out on sleep like she did with her son. my midwife tells me this story about a baby she delivered that was born with all sorts of birth defects and didn't live, but had no genetic disorder, so it was a freak thing. (i believe it was supposed to be an interesting story about how there aren't always discernable reasons for things, but who tells a pregnant woman that?) i am constantly hearing about how everything cause birth defects. my house has been overrun by fleas and spiders and we had to treat the yard and house, and so i haven't been there in months because we have to keep treating it because they wont go away. i have been staying either with my mother or in mississippi where my husband works. that gives me more reasons for concern because in mississippi we live near a power plant (i figure that is dangerous) the city sprays for bugs outside our apartment all the time. when i was at the beach the other day they flew over and dropped out spray for deer flys or something. i guess you guys are getting the point that everything freaks me out. i would just like to have an ultrasound and see that the baby has two arms and legs and a head or whatever so i could quit worrying that it didn't. my midwife doesn't do ultrasounds until 28-32 weeks, and i sort of tried to let her know that i was worried but she didn't seem to get what i was saying and i didn't know how to be more forceful. So i guess that i have to keep waiting and trying to come up with ways not to worry. i know ultrasounds could give me more stuff to worry about, but i just worry about everything now i would rather have something more specific to worry about. i really just need to calm down. just wanted to vent...thanks.