I was having irregular contractions and lots of signs of early labor for a couple of days before active labor really hit me hard at about 9:00a on the 25th. There was nothing--no book, no advice, no second-hand experience, no relaxation technique--that could have possibly ever prepared me for the pain of labor. It was terrible and beautiful: it seared everything clear and clean and white and I became totally feral... a roaring, moaning beast. It sounds silly now, but at one point I was pretty sure I was going to die.
The pushing stage lasted for more hours than I care to count. At one point I was begging the midwife to take me to the hospital and cut him out of me. Thankfully, she refused and he was delivered medication- and intervention-free.
I actually had some pretty serious blood loss--1200 CCs--and a second-degree tear that required six stitches (all the way from my vagina to my anus). I only started sitting up yesterday, which has made things a lot easier. My body is currently a mess and healing can't progress quickly enough.
The days since his birth have been a blur of breastfeeding, diaper changes, and epic snugglefests. I know co-sleeping doesn't work for everyone, but I can't imagine not sleeping snuggled up to Aesop--it's like snuggling cats times 2342798. He's been a blast so far. I had no idea newborns could be so alert, active, and strong. The day he was born, he could already hold his head up and look around (thanks again, natural birth!). He spends a lot of time trying to figure out all the stuff that he sees.
He's still a little battle-worn, but here are a few photos of him when he was still fresh out of the womb:
love the pics! (i was wondering which of the ladies on VP was you. now i know!)
HCM- gentle, all-natural, unconditional mama to three boys (8,6,4) and new baby girl!
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There was nothing--no book, no advice, no second-hand experience, no relaxation technique--that could have possibly ever prepared me for the pain of labor. It was terrible and beautiful: it seared everything clear and clean and white and I became totally feral... a roaring, moaning beast. It sounds silly now, but at one point I was pretty sure I was going to die.
to-fu, this is so true...the roaring, moaning beast is really in all of us, i believe, and it is how i got through labor this time. i was planning on doing hypnobabies, holy cow, i pretty much threw most of what i had been practicing out the window and i became very feral. it was not the birth i had envisioned, it was intense, but it was beautiful. women are so amazing, we are incredible, birth is so natural...women are really all connected through this experience we all have.
thanks for sharing your pics of Aesop! just beautiful, what a fresh little guy.
oh yes, co-sleeping is really the only way we will have it...we never even tried the co-sleeper...i want him in bed snuggled with me! nico is 3 weeks old today and cuddling with him really helped get me through some rough postpartum emotions.
healing totally takes time, just take things slow.
i'm sure he is going to continue being a blast, it never wears off ime.
congrats to-fu, thanks for sharing your story.
mama to and, due in November
Livin' the good life here in Connecticut with my DH and our three fabulous boys (4/3/06, 2/4/08 and 5/20/10) Hoping to try for Sweet Baby #4 in December!